My life, My world

100910 - boredom

2010-09-10T04:33:00.002+08:00

I m so bored.......haha bored from work cuz todae I m workin alone. Imagine workin solo facing laptops and walls of cushions.......no one to tok to.........I m bored haha tmr I m wokin solo again cuz hari raya haha den Sudirman took off on both thurs and fri haha I juz hope no calls will do.....hehe :P o0o ya btw on 070910 I sae that I went gym rite in the end it seems like my trainin plan dun work out cuz I din feel any muscle ache and stuff even I can feel that my thighs and calf are much tighter after the gym session........well the next session I will put more focus on liftin weights for legs........Haha saw michele todae I m like everidae I wwent work will see her de haha.....den everitime she is like tinkin of something(while walkin)den I sae 'hi' she will immediately change her face to a smiley face and sae hi....wondering wat is she tinkin abt...........haha shall ask her the nxt time I saw her.........Sat I m watchin Resident evil haha.........yaya v(~.~)v

070910 - Gym

2010-09-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

Well I m back!! For the last few months I m buy wif work and my life.....somehow I lost control over my life after sj de incident..........but todae I gather up my courage and look at her FB and learned that she had a new bf and she is gd........well at least I tot so la haha........no matter. But the main pt is that whn I see her pic de shi hou I asked myslf "how come I will like her" well same goes to all other gals that I liked before........they dun seems pretty or cute or watever to mi anymore.........it's like wt maggie lao shi and shu hui saes I uses too much of my head.......simply tinking too much haha.......I tok to buddy and pal abt myslf.....characteristics and all the flaws I have in mi......but now to mi I m changin...I can feel it....how shld I sae this......hmmmm maybe such of more relax haha in terms of I do wat I like and wat I wan.......example like cookin and gym and work........I feel tat my life is veri real and stable haha and I love it haha........well I quit alot of things like mahjong la and wanted to stop playin bball but decided to play on la haha.......I m learnin how to cook le haha nxt time shal cook for frens haha I cook for my family le haha of cuz it was alrite but I wan more improvement haha......shall be cookin some other new dishess I learn on youtube haha.......somemore I finalli understand wat type of gals I like le gals that kno how to dress up......haha but for now I dun plan to have any r/s maybe nxt time bah......I stil have alot of things that I wanna do before goin into a r/s..........
I wanna travel to japan, taiwan, venice, rome and many more......well that's typical saggi la haha I wanna go there and see and learn the diff cultures and take some pics haha..........well life is short......how many 10 years do we have in life? 7, 8? I have gone thru 2 10 years alr so I dun wanna waste anymore time on r/s hhaha if it's meant to happen it will happen if nt den I shall adopt a left-handed daughter lol......well as long as I m happy jiu can le haha

Special Eps- Buddy's birthdae bash

2010-06-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

Firstly I will wish my buddy happy birthdae...even though her birthdae is on Mondae....I was wif yiling and jas and jas's mum and dad den I saw jas de mum are so gd to her....quite envy haha this might be the family warmth I m lookin for....nt sayin that my family dun have family warmth but is juz nt the one that I wanted and hope for....well I still can't stay in the crowd cuz I can't communicate well wif ppl....chos shall update tmr k for yiling de birthdae k

Eps 108- Finalli gd luck after grad dae

2010-05-30T15:42:00.002+08:00

Firstly...on the dae of my grad I gt 2 sms that inform mi tat I m invited for an interview wif SIT and the police force........den on 24/5 I failed the police interview, however I have gotten the SIT offer for Bach in Science of Hotel administration.........YEAH however there is another prob...the sch fee for a yr is $33,000 yup is thirty-three thousands dollars.....lol but wif the MOE tuition grant is $9,000 nia........but my sis sae once u apply the tuition grant for poly.......u cant apply for Uni which means u can onli use tuition grant once.....I dunno if it's true or false but will try my best to solve the money prob lo........shall update soon

Eps 107- 爱一个人没爱到，难道就会怎麽样

2010-04-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

Dun get mi wrong....I din 失恋.....the title comes from the song "说谎".....I realli like this song alot cuz this song de feel....I have been thru.....it's a about a person hu keeps lying in order to cover up his lies......in this song this person keep sayin that he din lie..........however everitime he sae that he din lie, he is lyin......he still love her and had to bear the pain as she is a bride-to-be.....she din knows that he still love and tot that they could be frens......so when u listen to this song, look at the lyrics too......u will understand.......in the end he bursts, all the pain and feelings that are bottled up inside him finalli bursts.......this song is definitely a "WOW".......
After introin song of the week.......I m update u some of the news of my frens........firstly Johnson is going to be police...yays....he interviewed and is still waitin for the results......Joyling interview for a PAP kindergarden teacher.......lol.......imagine her as a teacher........lol haha.......nvm......lol..........the rest I m still askin them........for mi, I m tinkin hairstylist? sign on as a army man?　I still have no idea yet.....well I started vocal class again after about 3 months de deferment........haha well the teacher change, she is Maggie 老师 haha her class is realli joyful.....she give mi a image of how Buddy will be in the years to come.....haha I felt that I have improve cuz I can sing a wide range of songs le however she wans mi to find a 快歌 that allows mi to play wif my voice....still I haven found a gd one....hope I will find before Sundae lol

Eps 106- 不甘示弱

2010-04-08T02:36:00.002+08:00

Recently, watch this show called 'wu di shan bao mei'. I kno I kno this show is so old liao rite. But I wanna focus on this show de particular song called 不甘示弱 by 张栋梁. It's a smoothing song and have sad story hide in the song. It's sayin that how this guy regrets after his galfren left him as he din do anything to stop her from leavin him. Well this song oso tell ppl that they shld cherish the ppl ard them no matter is kinship, friendship or relationships. I m listening to it rite now, feelin calm and puzzled.
Puzzled by a dream that I had recently. I dreamt of one of my sec sch fren died in a car accident, and rite after his death I met this gal and I actualli like her. It felt so real, I even went to his funeral wif her. Lol wat a dream rite haha, will at least dreaming can allow mi to have wat I dun have and wat I wan. At least Heaven din forsake mi, I m still hopeful haha.
Will have u had any dream lately?

Eps 105- 友情的定义

2010-03-05T03:44:00.002+08:00

三月五日
晴
近来我不断的做梦，我梦到的都是女生。我开始觉得我自己疯了。我是时候放下了，不是她不值得而是太久了，她在我心里太久了，是时候请她走了。她现在过的好好的就不要打扰她。至少她有人疼，在她的世界里，不会有我，所以我也要忘记她了。我要找腿很细很美的，我下定决心了。但我不保证我可以一百巴仙的去喜欢她，不过我会尽量，只希望她不要伤我的心才好。
wah so freakin tiring lo if my whole post is chinese ar. I tink I realli type till the next dae liao lo....lol seriously dunno how they type one sia...lol...I hope I can gt in NTU and I oso hope that I can change my life alittle and make some new frens....if can more close frens.....I wanna be rich........I wanna earn money the old fashion way......I hate being poor.....I dunn wanna be poor anymore.....

Eps 104- Haven grow up

2010-02-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

Recently I asked someone 'what do u tink of mi?' this type of typical stupid ques haha lol....Haven grow up was the reply.....a pri 6 kid in twenties body.....haaha......after I saw this reply ar....I straight away laugh......I tot how do u kno a 20 year old person shld act like.......always treat ppl eat den ask ppl to treat u back.....or being serious den muz be like da gege like tat den is like 20...lol....I was tinkin if this is the ans that u ppl have in mind den I guess ur understanding towards mi is wrong liao lo.......it's true that one part of my personality din change since pri sch or even kindergarden.....but I find it a gd one....even ppl sae I m childish....but I find that it makes mi happy....
I m a person that even if I m gd....there will not be any compliment....so wat for being the best conditioned 'mi'....btw I m going to perm my hair on tues haha....let buddy and yiling see whn we meet up....I guess my classmates shld be the first to see bah I hope it turns out well....27th is kaifeng's birthdae she sae she invited alot of frens...lol so my hair cant be cui one....haha.....
I went boonlay on sat....lol alot of pretty gals sia lol....got one ar wah lao eh veri cute...she wear white....den beside her is a fierce lookin gal lol...like tat hu dares to gt the pretty gal de no. sia.....market price will drop de lo...lol......I tink in future 10 years I wanna focus on earnin money.....I wanna be rich person.....cuz being rich realli has a lot of advantages haha......
rich rich rich....

Eps 103- Happy new year.....+valentine's day

2010-02-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

Haha for mi...it's a great start for this year.....becuz I won abt 70 bucks in Mahjong lol.....and that oso means that my plan to perm my hair is closer to mi and I planned to perm it after feb...haha this year I wore berms on both daes of new year....on chu 2 my family went my grandma house(my mum side), my 3th uncle's house(my mum side), my 1st aunt house(my mum side), my 4th uncle house(my mum side), and my uncle house(my father side) haha won money at there haha...haha den my family on chu 3 went my aunt house and play mahjong again...I din wan to play but had to lo....lol...lose abt 90 cents haha.....
I went to her house de area on chu 2 cuz my uncle(father side) stay there...saw her street there suddenly felt sad again....lol....
aiya....大过年的....tok abt sad things haha lol.....well tok abt some happy things ah....
Let's see.....hmmmmmm saw the taekwando gal last week....might be the last time I see...still din get no. .......haha 缘尽了 haha.....well at least I get to see her when she put her fringe down haha.....lol....
happy things....
I find some of my pri sch frens back haha.......and most of them rmb mi haha..........
hmmmmm nxt time I blog hope that my hair is permed liao hhaha and btw I got gold for nafra haha......

Eps 102- Goin to gong xi fa cai.....red packets pls...

2010-02-08T18:11:00.003+08:00

Todae was doin project at library...stomache lo so sian everitime do project muz died died stomache one lo....tink I will one dae live inside the library toilet lo...lol den was tinkin abt someone straight after I come out...den Johnson tell mi he saw her wearin formal walkin around.....lol I oso dunno y I tok abt this topic sia lol strange lo.....well as I was saying ytd was daryll's 21st bd...happy 21st birthdae...we went to Chinese Garden's de swimming pool there....gt slide that one la....lol....he birthdae I kanna....lol I kanna throw into the pool alot of times lo...so many times till can go Guiness world record liao lo..lol they excuses are I m the lightest among them lol....I cant even enjoy the float inside the lazy pool lo....lol sian.....recently ppl are askin mi this ques how many gf do u have before ar....my ans is one....den they shock lol....WTF is the first reaction....they need to play play first cuz now stil young....findin the lifetime partner will be a few years ltr(30 years old like tat cuz cant play anymore liao haha).....I oso dunno y lehz....I juz cant find anyone I like lo....some I find that they are pretty but jiu pretty lo....dun like means dun like lehz....appearance bah haha not handsome enuff to look at lo haha....seriously lo I everitime take train ppl also siam from mi one lol...juz becuz of my hairstyle...lol well haha...dun care...if that gal likes mi she will like my everithing de...

Eps 101-a New beginning

2010-01-28T01:25:00.002+08:00

Todae let's discuss about some of the most regretted thing of ur life....hmmmmmm ok let mi rephrase the whole sentence by asking this ques -- if u have the power to go back in time(u can onli change one thing), what thing would u like to change?

for mi I would like to change my entire life.....change my life from I m in pri 3...change my sec sch life....change my poly life....it's nt like m sec friends are nt treating mi well or something....but from my pt of view, everione muz have a fren that u can tok to....I have 2 haha....so that's nt my regret but wat I wan is ppl understandin mi....of course no one could....they tot they understand mi...they sae I dun care abt ppl...but I myslf I kno I do....the onli thing is I dun do anything to show...well nt doing anything to show care is nt a crime...haha ppl I care and I show is my parents whom I oso recently den start to do thing to show that I care....I kno that I dun like to do things in front of ppl....cuz I dun like to lick ppl boots....that's y no one likes mi....but I understand myslf....I guess that will do even if it means that I have no more frens....I have no more frens to celebrate birthdae wif....even if I have no more birthdaes party to go to.....things are nt going to change....misunderstandings are onli getting deeper and deeper....I will still love myslf.....cuz human are independent creatures they dun need to depend on others....haha

well that's y recent point of view....and finalli I hope that Boon may first dae of sch is smooth haha....

Eps 100- Wah FInalli the hundred post lol....

2010-01-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

OMG it take mi 3 long years to blog my 100th post lol......but this 100 posts oso acc mi for my past 3 yrs in poly haha....so fast going grad.....abit sad la haha...well ppl comes and goes la haha.....wah todae I added some of my pri sch classmates haha....so fun haha they din change much lehz haha....I felt I change quite abit haha....but still as emotional la haha....I find out that english sometimes things and ppl dun realli change....they juz turn 180 degrees....away from u....that's y I will find them hard to understand cuz whn they turn 180 degrees away from u...their back is facing u....that's y understanding is difficult.....haha this is my theory.....how abt a question for u guys.....have u sae hi to frens that u have nt tok to for a long time?....if u havent u can start now...cuz it's interesting....tinking that whether they change or nt.....do they look the same or totalli diff.....haha fun....=)

Eps 99- dT_Tb

2010-01-19T21:48:00.003+08:00

近来，我发现我身边的朋友一个一个的在改变。我自己也发现自己还是忘不了她。那件事之后，我好像在也不可以做好任何事了。我好比一个没了自信的人。我知道那很不对，但有时还是没办法。我发现我好像是个超孤单的人，朋友不少但好朋友没几个。我知道真正认识我的朋友都很挺我，他们都帮我很多。我很感谢他们。她在我的身命里流下了一道疤，一道很深的疤。笑着亦是哭着，哭着亦是笑着。

Eps 98- 海派甜心

2009-12-08T22:04:00.003+08:00

How long izzit I haven blog le almost one and half months....I guess.....This few weeks I been chasing this show called, 海派甜心, it's nice real nice....this show somehow reminds mi of someone.....someone hu dun believe in Love anymore....how sad can it be......it seems like everione else in the world have their own story to tell....wat abt ur's? wat's ur story? happiness is everiwhere but can u catch it, that's the ques? Are u happy?

Eps 97-How come Sadness always come to mi?

2009-10-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

Todae went trainin for Lawson de club....all the training was alrite....but whn it comes to 5-5 something goes wrong....the 2 teams is inbalance....one stronger and one okay okay.....normally the strong shld win de but startin is realli tough cuz the mind of the strong team is sure win one lehz....while the other team even they are okay okay onli but they give their best to win and whn they saw that winning opportunity they quickly grab....the strong side start to crumbles at defence and den MI hu is in that strong team finalli gt angry and I myslf understand y I yell!!! but no one kno they juz tink that fuck la ben cb angry again....den whn lester sub mi I at sideline....I can realli hu's givin everithing and hu's nt....that's y I dun like to be in a strong team....even myslf oso cant control and feel this match sure win liao lo....den everione's nt happy....I suddenly understand y I have failed for so many years lo....my temper....haha dun worry after I post this I will be happy again...as for joining their trainin....I will reconsider le cuz I dun wan to drag ppl behind.....I m realli angry at myslf lo after all this years my temper still de same...see something wrong....I muz bu shuang one lo hahaha.....my leg is hurtin again it's going bad to worst liao....dun kno how long I still can do sports sia....haha

Eps 96- my life......

2009-10-26T01:22:00.003+08:00

Todae suddenly wanted to post some recent things online.....mondae I cut my hair, everione tinks of my hair differently.....Wed Lester asked mi and daryll to join their training....I agree becuz I too tink that they have potential....I tricked Daryll in tinkin that I wans to play so much and dun wanna to left him out.....becuz both darren and Lester tink that they dun have a forward that can slash though defence....that's y I wan him to join....Wed I went and pass boon may a amulet for her exams and wish her good luck....she sae my hair like no hair like tat lol...sat went Zyang hse and do fyp....Everi now and den I see Zyang I will like wan to ask how's sijia....haha but I din ask in the end...cuz I ask le oso like tat haha....everithing is startin to come into place le...my singing is improvin...my studies is better(attitude towards study)....even though the first dae of sch I wasnt that happy cuz I m still tinkin abt things that happen last yr and last month....haha but I wun le I wun be unhappy becuz of some ppl....even if I dun like them....the more I disliked them the more happy I shld be.....bu shi mah....haha....I see alot of video this daes haha gt some quite funny gt some veri unexpected....haha makin my life even more interestin...haha even though there are more unhappiness to come but I have no choice to juz be happy and see wat I can do wif all the unhappy.....well dun gt mi wrong haha I juz wanna enjoy all the smoothness in my bball, singing, studys and frenship....

Eps 95-Disappointment to everione...

2009-10-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Ytd I gt a call from my sch....they told mi that the Safra PK challenge...arrange a special audition....I was excited and todae I went for the audition...I sing...你是我的眼...and an english 'like a rose'.....I din went in as expected llo....the judge was our sch principal....he sae the first song I sing was gd all the atmosphere and the emotions are gd but the sec song the first part abit nt clear(my diction)....and he sae my voice sometimes is abit thin..and dun have this substance that surround the audience....den he ask the three of us 'hu do u tink will gt in'....everione sae themselves except for mi....well whn I m on stage...I realli m confident...cuz I dun tink of anything...well I chose other ppl la....in the end that person went in....I was so close of gtin in....haiz whn m I going to break this curse...arrrr...I kno I m improvin but I juz cant gt in....I m givin my 100% to everi sec I can gt on stage....wat shld I do....can gt mi into a bigger stage for even more audience...I m nt afraid to sing for ppl....I juz afraid that I cant gt in....

Eps 94- I miss u so much

2009-09-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

Todae was realli a stressed dae...firstly is getting the results...well like I expected my GPA drops...but luckily it din drop much....there is stil hope for Uni....well I kno y I have gotten this results...and I m nt going to blame anyone....den somemore todae waihao tell mi that 28/9 is the deadline for the Spinnovex nomination entry....well I dunno wat is that but it's realli taxin cuz our FYP teacher is nt in Singapore....and we cant contact cuz in China internet not good...lol so I have to solve this prob myslf cuz I m leader...I believe our project can get a B+ de even though alot of things is bought using the budget but the main test is using the peltier to cool the enclose area to our target temp....I reali need to tink like a leader le haha...sometimes quite sian cuz need to tink alot...and I wanna tok to someone oso cant haha....duno u hao mah....how's ur results and all...how's ur bro....how's ur everithing??
When I m free, I will sometimes wanna tok to u haha but in the end tok to myslf lo LOL jkin la...haha well that's todae....LOOKIN FOR TML

Eps 93- Kevin and Limin's wedding pt 2

2009-09-21T00:32:00.019+08:00

Eps 92- Everione's nervous....haha

2009-09-19T23:56:00.003+08:00

Tml is my cousin's wedding...everione is nervous cuz he is the first in our relative to get marry.....haha I wish him and his wife live a blissful life haha.....as for mi I special went to shop for new clothes...cuz I dun have anything that is fit for FOUR SEASON HOTEL.....lol haha yup his wedding is @ four season hotel...haha it's at orchard road there...I bought alot of things..one new pair of skinny....one new vest....a new chain and one brand new medal haha lol.....wanna kno more haha tml I will take some pic of mi and my cousin's wedding haha and for the first time my mum's family side is reveal haha....thnks for all the comments...I oso tink that I m becoming more mature...after all this things happened...well I have to be mature cuz I m going 20 lo....and boonmay remember our pacts hor something that's going to happen in NOV haha lol.....

Eps 91- Times and times of Mi

2009-09-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

So long nv blog lo.......it's like one month ago(my last entry), I still miss her....she is that kind of person that will be missed by anyone cuz she is a realli gd fren....she will be and forever is my fren...my gd fren.....dun be mistaken she is nt dead yet juz that she's takin her O's....in this last month many things happened....things that revolved ard mi actualli changed mi....changed my opinion towards relationships...changed my opinion towards life....towards goals...in this few months I learn alot....from my grandpa's death..to sijia de incident....to even boonmay....
dun kno if anyone notice from my grandpa's death...I changed in terms of hidin my feelings in front of ppl....I cried for the first time in front of my relative and family...ever since I m hmmmm in primary bah I guess...
As for sijia's incident.....this is the first time tat I actuali can sae that I loved her....others maybe like.....when everything happens I juz dunno wat to do...I m juz stunned and shock of the things I heard from her....even till now I still cant totalli forgt her....
as for boon may.....it's like someone above is givin mi hope towards life after he/she has taken my everything away....Boon may is my smile...it's like after I kno her I found my smile, my laughter back after all the things happened....
Ppl that kno mi veri long will kno that I looked forward to a romantic and cosy relationship....but all this incidents change my perspective of lookin at it...somehow I realised relationship...I cant handled it yet...I cant nt because I m nt ready for it....but becuz the things ard mi are nt ready for it.....but for mw I dun wan to have a relationship yet cuz I wan to improve and focus on wat I m doing...I wan to excel in everything....everything that happen have made mi distracted in every single things I have done....my grades are faling...I dun wanna win in bball games....I lost my wisdom...lost myself...I lose to fate......so I have got to pull myslf tgt...I have greater things to achieve....nth's gonna block my way anymore...

Eps 90- I m starting to miss u

2009-08-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

Todae mi, wai hao, zyang and johnson went to Sim lim tower to see our component things haiz...we stuck at the peltier module there lol.....but I tink that nw the prob is nt the peltier module is the program and other things...den after that I went hme alone....startin feelin bored abt the things that are revolving my life...so sian....haiz I realli missed her....her laughter and randomness...she havin exams sia...I hope everithing faster pass by and I can see her soon.....I went to drink the Chocolate Ice blend todae which she liked so much....lol I din like the taste...yuck haha I realli m a weird guy cuz I realli dun like chocolate....well haha banana milkshake is my fave drink haha lol I nd go study liao byebye

Eps 89- 我好累啊

2009-07-28T18:46:00.002+08:00

Todae I play bball....I totalli no mood cuz I saw some ppl...lol...like I sae before to my close frens....one compare and another one criticise....wow I hated them man...even though I gt them tgt....wow I realli regret bringin them tgt lo....wtf....I seriously veri fed up wif this matter lo.....my personal things she go let....him hear....lol...hear liao I still have to endure his critics.....wah she still ask mi wan another piece to sing mah...lol....I alr dun wanna sae anything den still dare to ask mi wan another piece mah....lol....den she let mi angry for 3 times.....first she let him listen to my music....second she send his music to mi....somemore same song....WAH wtf rite....wat u wan....okok la I veri lousy he sing veri gd....he everithing better den mi k can liao mah....stop the fucking comparing will u....I m a human...lo I GT FREAKIN FEELINS......den the guy....he tot he veri close to mi....lol other ppl can sae wat they wan I dun care cuz they are close to mi....I kno they jkin....HU ARE U TO TEACH MI CROSSOVER.....and I dun wanna kno u de lo...is becuz I m her fren that's y....u 2 read liao wanna angry...watever I dun care....cuz to mi...u 2 are realli makin mi pissed liao.....and my limits are going to be reached.....if u wanna compare mi wif other things or other human or animal...pls dun k I hated to be compared....

Eps 88- Things are boring

2009-07-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

Todae I wake up feeling everidae so sian and boring.....den want to msg her that time.....I rmb she ytd sae dun distract her.....and she is studyin everidae....so I dun kno when to msg her so that I wun distract her....so I din msg her in the end....I plannin nt to msg her till after O's bah....I have alot of things I wanna tell her....my recent bad things.....my recent gd things.....den I suddenly tink y tell her so much....she juz a fren mah lol...and y she muz listen....haiz sian I oso dunnno wat I m tokin la....lol....haiz haha tok to my frens haha some dun care...some listen liao den jiu listen lo.....some I oso dunno they wan to hear de mah....lol....so y bother to tell them.....and the things I wanna tell her is somethings that revolve ard some ppl la....onli her is nt from my grp de...I wan to her wat is her views....sometimes is the ppl that are nt ur age can tell u wat u tink is the best solutions.....but since she is havin her exams preparations den I wun tell her anything bah....haiz there goes my part time joker.....anyone wans to interview for it??? Gals onli thnks....LOL.....=)....my first emotion on my blog lol after 88 episode lol......well she change the way I m tokin cuz she is the first one that complain no commas, no fullstops, and no emotions....lol my sms la and all lol.....

Eps 87- I cut my hair lo.....

2009-07-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

21st of July I cut my hair.....haha I have officially change my hairstyle haha.....tml there is this interview again by another modelin company lol....I sian alr haha but they sae need to bring a photo...lol haiz the salon oso din call mi one....haha sianzzzzz........this wk gt alot of things that made mi realli veri fed up lo....warn u all first ar...dun ever compare mi k for gd or bad I oso dun like cuz I will hate u de....I realli dun like ppl to compare mi wif others lo....cuz I feel that it's no meanin de lehz....haha I gt so much I wana sae but I dun feel like saying it here lehz I realli like the way mi and her tok lo....even if sometimes she forgt abt my things....even if she nv ask so much ques as I do.....even if she is busy and cant tok to mi.....she is person that can made mi laugh de lo....is REALLI LAUGH de lo....strange lehz....she wrote on my Cbox that she wun tok to mi anymore.....hmmmmm how come I.....dun feel any anger and confusion de lol.....maybe is becuz I kno the reason behind it.....shld I explain anything?? Maybe nt nw bah.....she havin her exams....dun wan her to be disturb by mi....

Eps 86- her, Her, HEr, HER

2009-07-10T01:30:00.003+08:00

Lol haha I recently kno this siao siao de gal call BM....lol she veri crazy de haha.....kno her for 3 wks lo.....is like sms her alot la cuz she is VERI FUNNY and RANDOM cant stop tokin to her de lo.....I still dun kno how's her char like??? so I muz kno her longer see how.......I went out wif her from 11pm till like 8 something am de reach hme lol......u kno wat we did...we juz kept tokin lol....haha we can tok on msn from 10pm- 7 am lol....haha veri weird rite....ok dun ask mi y I din tok to u guys for so long....I dunno how to ans one.....lol.....she is the first person I tok so long on msn lo...lol haha tokin to her makes my dae haha no worries she is nt a substitute for anyone.....haha......and I wun rush anything cuz I still have no feelins towards her yet but in the future I can confirm that I will like her sooner or later....haha but there is still much more ppl and things I haven done yet so I cant juz focus on her lo....this is wat I tot of this time.....I learn alot of last exp.....and I learn alot in BBALL too....thnks to daryll hu teaches mi Crossovers....and fakes.....haha I m learnin tear drop shot tooo....by myslf haha....it's startin to be fun for mi le cuz it's excitin to crossover and made ppl anklebreak haha I wan to be a anklebreaker lol haha.......as for SJ.....I have put down the feelins for her le.....I dunno if we still can be frens cuz it juz doesnt seems rite anymore.....haha nw onli Zyang tok abt her in front of mi....Joyling and Joey they all dun tok abt her....haha I still concern abt her but juz as a fren haha like how I concern for my buddy and Yiling lo....and my other female and male frens haha....I hope tat her bf and her will live in bliss....as for mi I hope to finish wat I have start...all my dreams and hopes lo....

Eps 85- Studys are realli a borin work

2009-06-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

LOL I chatted wif Miss Zhu till 7am in the mornin lol haha din feel tired cuz she is realli funnny and random haha........I like to tok to her.......cuz made mi go back to sec sch times haha.......den slept at 7am and 9am johnson called mi wake up haha but I told him I juz slp nia lehz so meet at 12 haha den cant play bball cuz rainin den we play da di for 3 hrs- 4 hrs like tat lol sibei lame ar.......we play open hand de lo haha no one play before rite haha.......den we went to play bball for a while and juz go hme cuz Joyling told mi that Joey ask mi to go XW and have dinner wif them lol.......den last min cancel haha den I reach hme bathe liao JIU Zzzzz till 2am haha.........lol den wake up check email la and all den kno tat mon is my ECS exams haha died liao lo haha somemore the MST no solutions de lo haha dunno how to study haha....hhaahaha lol......Stupid teacher......haha Everithing is restartin and life is back to normal......wah so fast holis over liao wor......I whole holis doin nth lo haha....

Eps 84- 自恋

2009-06-17T21:27:00.003+08:00

说我爱你
从男人的心里是最难表达诚实的秘密
说你愿意
靠在我肩的你
是最难抗拒动人的回应
你扬起的嘴角
给我爱情的动力
弯弯的眼睛
藏不住你孩子气
看着我在你眼里
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby 我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
看你泛红的脸
说出模糊的话语
我的心只听见你心里的回音
看着我在你眼睛
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
睡不能睡
脑海都是你画面oh
幸福帮我剪接你的笑脸
我承认我爱上你的美
你的美没有虚伪
让我爱你爱到忘了我是谁
oh baby因为你我爱上夜的黑
像搭着无人地铁
开向你为我设的专署路线
终于看见
我承认我爱上你的

This song is Show Luo de 自恋 lol I kno alot ppl will sae this song so old liao y the's pt of tellin u all nw rite.....haha when I heard this song and see the song de lyrics ytd that time......I ji tou feel that this song realli suit my situation rite nw......everi sentence everi word all sae out how I feel towards her.......everi sentence reminds mi of her.....well I m startin to forgt lo....I m happy I tink

Eps 83- 4th dae wifout contactin u

2009-06-14T22:28:00.002+08:00

Todae is the 4th dae since I din msg u or tok to u on msn.........I still cant control myslf wantin to ask u how are u??? I din see u online for a few daes le..........I dun wanna tink of the worst so I juz wonderin how are u lo?? I kinda of like to eat lunch wif ppl, esp ppl that are trap in r/s probs........I like to hlp them...I like to hear and learn and give my views........and know abt r/s myslf........haha I like the sofa more lo.........I have eaten wif Chen Juan..........Joyling..........hu wanna be nxt haha...........ok I kno...u guys oso kno that I m nt being myslf...well I realli tried to put down cuz too much have happened on mi le.........too much till I onli can feel happiness lo and as for sadness...he may have taken a long vacation...I will be happy everidae de...dun ask mi if she is worth it...dun sae that she is nt as perfect as I tink...alot of things I dunno how sae but I kno she is worth it and I kno she is nt perfect cuz I m nt either...y wld I wan a perfect person when I m nt perfect...喜欢就是喜欢...我真的放不下也放不了...I realli tried u kno...I tot that if I din tok to her if I din see her pics ar I will gradually forgt this person bah but I cant...This few daes when I saw ppl that time esp nt veri tall de...I will tot I see her...I kno I kno I m tinkin too much...but I m nt tinking when it happened...it's like a natural reactions but I cant do anything...juz keep on tryin lo...haha wonderin y I like her so much yet I can stop tokin to her??? haha...Cuz I have 3 reasons:
1st...Is I dun wan her bf to check her hp and all la...cuz hp is realli veri private de stuff lo
2nd...Is I dun wan her to feel that I m naggy and annoying and all lo
3rd...Is I dun wanna her bf and her to quarrel becuz of mi anymore lo
Yup....all 3 reasons are how I can stop tokin to her lo

lol that dae wed ar we celebrate Chen juan's bd but in the end the mornin part onli mi and her.....lol lucky she ok wif it ar...tok to her lo...abt her bf and the recent things lo...den go play pool wif her haha saw deme...lol he tot Chen juan my gf lol...haha
den somemore I went out wif Joyling on Sat for Lunch session...and I saw my vocal teacher, Alex lol died liao lo he will ask if Joyling is my gf mah lol...hmmmm btw I tok to Joyling abt her bf and recent things lo...hmmm lots of ques are thrown ard la...lol well wat can I sae I LOVE LUNCH SESSION HAHA....seriously hu is nxt haha....hu gt r/s prob...my consultant fees are juz nt cheap haha...jkin hehe I onli hope I can help ppl nia...

Eps 82- something's wrong

2009-06-10T01:46:00.001+08:00

How come when I m emotionally agitated...the part beside my stomach will have a sharp pain ar.....I tink if it continue I go see doc liao la.......

Eps 81- Knowin wat I wan

2009-06-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

Ytd I went lots of places....den I asked her out again and she suddenly din reply mi......the whole dae I sian sian de..........den veri hot tempered.....wat the fuck I m doing and wat the hell have I become or is becoming..........I m freaking obsess wif her liao la.....is like dun have her I will died like tat......lol...........I totalli forgtten y I like her in the first place....and nw after I have step back a few steps le I see the overview........I kno wat I wan nw...........I dunno if she like mi...I dunno even if she likes mi she will break wif her bf mah........I dunno alot of stuffs becuz somethings cant be known juz by tinking or using feelings........at the start of the race....I alr could see the results of the race le but in the end I stil wan to be part of it...........I oso dunno y......but I finalli understood wat I wan I wan her to be happy.......no matter wat she do who she choose.........as long as she is happy can le............as for mi I lost my wisdom and tinking ability in the process................I kno y I wld be so obsess wif her...............becuz I tink that she might one dae tell mi to forgt abt her.........that's y I wanted to cherish everi chance that I can see her, hlp her, or make her happy............but in the end I m tooo selfish liao lo I din kno that becuz of all this she is feelin pressurize by mi..........lol it's time to look into the reality liao........haha no worries my mood nw is more relax den ever cuz I m doing wat I shld have done in the start......I wun give up cuz I promised myslf nt to give up no matter wat even if I m being rejected in the end which have a higher chance la but I wun have any regret cuz I have done the best that I have done liao lo I m silly, aint I ..........

Eps 80- There can be miracle when u believed

2009-06-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

This past few daes I been veri emo.......Esp after the msg thing.....Sun, Mon, Tues....all gt emo dao lo..............Sunday I realli veri emo cuz I realli veri sad liao den somemore my hairdresser take leave lol....cant vent my frustration on my hair.......lol............den Joyling and Z.yan and Joey all acc mi and cheer mi up lo...........haha when we eatin dinner going to go hme liao de I start to sae abit lame things.....but Mon I oso the same sian sian de..........Saw her at MRT....1048am.....u kno y I can remember the timin cuz I looked at the watch tinking I might see her.....at that time I want to kan dao her but dunno how to face her.....and I saw her lo....she din see mi I walked veri quickly to avoid her lo...................den when I play bball that time Daryll saw my sian sian face ask mi wat did 4+ do to mi lol.......I sae nth.............hhaha den tues after I went to FC 5 after my first lesson....I saw her...she din see mi and I straight away hide in bangdeli lo....lol............I tell joyling I saw her...........den joyling walked up to her.......she tell joyling that the msg is her bf want her to send de...........she din have the intention to do it de lo.........den she told joyling she din explain to mi is becuz her bf confiscate her hp after that lol..........den even though I happy abit...maybe alot la but I kno things still doesnt change..........then tues nite mi, joyling, Z.yang and Joey we went to Kovan to pass her bd gift......her bf was wif her.....lucky I ask joyling they all to give her lo...........she din see mi again lol...........12 midnite I went to kovan to pass her her gift lehz..........lol if ppl kno mi well de ar will kno that in my life I have nv do such things before lo...........so can see I realli like her alot de......den thurs I sent her hme.....veri funny lo everione is like telling mi she likes mi............but I cant feel any..........but sometimes I does feel that she is interested in mi but sometimes I dun...........Joyling sae de correct...I m using too much of my head liao.........muz use more of my heart more..................somemore when I buy the gift that time like fated like tat lo.........I buy the locker is last one liao den somemore her fave colour..........haha so qiao lo..........den went in a shop.........the song goes" there can be miracle when u believed" lol den I realli awake liao lo............I believed tat as long as I try my best there will be a miracle de...........I told z.yang I feel that she is the one I been waitin for lo.........I realli hope she is that One la...........cuz the obstacles are realli cant solved de lo den suddenly truth is out lo..........I dunno if any more things are going to happen mah but I onli can sae I will hold on to her.........I will give everithing I have in order to see that she is safe, healthy, happy.......yup haha a bit too serious le hor hhaaa ps....but this is how I feel lo............and doing things for her I found out that I have gd frens that are willing to wait for mi when I buying and doing the present and acc mi to send her hme ar and hlp mi up when I down.............THnks all that hlp mi and esp Joyling she helped mi alot....and she hlped mi to wrap the present cuz I dun kno how to wrap lol........haha thnks I realli m gladful I meet u BITES, cuz I din meet u I wun like u if I din like u I wun found frens that are wiling to do things for mi.......thnks I have alot of gd frens nw............I will thnks everione when I see them haha........

第七十九集-- 这一秒我哭了

2009-06-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

不知道是不是上天玩我。。。我不喜欢的时候她是单身的。。。到了我真的喜欢了她就有男朋友了。。。。。。我到底是不是欠你的。。你要这样玩我。。。。我不玩了好吗放过我好吗。。。我求你啦。。我真的受够了。。。难道我所经历还不够吗。。。你给了我希望却在我相信这希望的时候。。。。给了我失望。。。难道我不知道我不该喜欢她吗。。。。有没有人可以告诉我。。。喜欢一个人有错吗。。。。我比谁都清楚被人抢去感受好不好。。。。

Eps 78- I lost.......

2009-05-31T14:25:00.002+08:00

Thurs I went to eat wif zzhong yang to celebrate his bd.............and I confess to her....I like her.......Ytd she quarrel wif bf..........I worry...............nt worry if the couple din break......is worry abt her...........todae I ask her if she is okay le mah..............she sae all settle le............and the worst finalli happened............I remember ZX ask mi this ques before.....if her bf ask u to stop msgin wat will u do??......she told mi her bf knos that I msg her liao and he wans mi to nt msg her everidae........and she add on sae if someone is msgin my gf den I oso bu shuang ma...........hmmmmmm I can ans........this ques cuz it happen before.....I m ok as long as she tell mi abt it...........everithing that has happen seems like a mirror to myself remindin mi of my ex.....remindin mi tat I let her go.........The ans I told ZX is that I will stop msgin her........hmmmmmm they quarrel becuz this matter.......hmmm everione sae that she is nt serious in her relationship wif her bf but somehow I can kno that she is serious de...........from wat they told mi abt her bf....her bf de person shld be a insecure, low confidence level, da nan ren....de person but if they quarrel he will be the first person to give in.............hmmm haiz in the end....I kno what I shlddo and will be doing and even though I be sad but well SADNESS IS ALWAYS MY FREN....I kno him veri well......Wo zhen shi ge stupid guy.....maybe I m realli nt made for relationship bah maybe I m made for hlpin ppl to be tgt lo......MATCHmaker bah........ya lo.......and no one tells her this thing hor.......well even tell oso no use she wun care de bah..........haha ya lo

Eps 77- THE MIST

2009-05-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

Haaha I juz saw ' The mist'.....I kno I kno it's a outdated movie but after 2 lessons of film appreciation I finalli understand wat the story is realli abt......'The mist' is abt a town is trapped in this mist and there is creatures from other world(s) that is hiding in the mist waiting to feed on humans.....some keep on moving some stay on some believe it's god doing....there is this particular grp of 5 survived the creatures and is in a car trying to go out of the mist.....however the car ran out of petrol and the 5 ppl include a father and his son, a old man, 2 teachers, one old and one young. Like I sae, the car ran out of petrol, they din kno wat to do as they have a revolver which has onli 4 bullets. The father killed the rest and went out of the car to attract the creatures to kill him......however he could onli find tanks and soldiers marching toward him from behind.......the soldier cleared the mist and killed the beast.....

From wat I sae....can u find out wat the real story is abt???

The real story is toking abt LIFE. The mist is the unknown future. The creatures are the obstacles. When ppl is blocked by an obstacle, some stay on which means juz let it be, some keep on moving which means looked forward and juz move forward, some believe in god's doing which means fated...However when u tried and so hard to move forward den something juz dun go rite and wat u do? Give up? Or keep on trying? So when u give up, you can onli regret wat u have done when u are old.

Haha m I clever or wat haha....I tink the writer is trying to tell ppl to keep on trying no matter how bad the situation is or u might regret like the father did as he could have juz stay put or even push the car and the 5 of them could survived but he chose the wrong choice.

第七十六集-- 放过我吧

2009-05-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

我真的是累了。。。。我不管是认识谁我都只是在害对方罢了。。。。我在这对xx说对不起。。。。。就当我是叫他们去跟着你的吧。。。。真的对不起。。。真的有时我不想活了你知道吗。。。坏事老是跟着我。。。。我没资格去喜欢一个人吧。。。。不要担心不惯彩云的事。。。。是别人啦。。。。命运你赢了。。。。或许我真是个天煞孤星罢。。。命中注定孤独终老。。。。

第七十五集-- 我哭了

2009-05-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

星期五的早上。。。自以为是的我还以为自己不会哭呢但谁也想到，一个心已没感觉的人尽然会哭。。。我本以为我可以接受爷爷已不在的事实但还是哭了。。。。我们一边陪着他走完最后的路，一边哭。。。我便想起好多小时候的事情。。。。爷爷背着我的书包走在我后面深怕我会跌倒或会怎麽样。。。看着他慢慢的被推进去火化。。。。我的泪水便不断的飚出来了。。。我真的很想你啊。。。我们对互相的承诺都没做到。。。这是我人生中的第一个遗憾！！！

第七十四集-- 我很难过

2009-05-06T00:35:00.002+08:00

很多人问我为什麽我没上学。。。我不想告诉任何人的所以在这里说。。。最疼我的爷爷今天早上过世了。。。我很难过我不想去理会任何一个人。。。我看着他的遗体想起我小的时候他照顾我的情形。。。我对他的承诺没做到。。。。他答应我的事他也没做到。。。这可能是我一生唯一值得遗憾的事了。。。不说了我明天得上学也得去爷爷的丧礼。。。

第七十三集---深圳之旅之后的感想

2009-04-18T06:21:00.002+08:00

哈哈好奇为什麽我永华文字.....因为我多了深圳的朋友咯.......哈哈哈在我踏处恒之源的那一刻....我告诉自己不能哭得......罗烨还开玩笑说我坚强冷血哈哈我不想在大家面前哭哈哈哈我看到蔡大姐....张思秀.....罗烨.....龙治位啊他们都泛带泪光....自己也不舍得但不舍得又能如何......我始终得走的...大家的留言我都读了....真很感谢你们....我只怨我们大家相逢太晚........不能好好的与对方在一起生活......

Eps 72- Day by Day

2009-03-16T23:39:00.003+08:00

Wow it's wk 3 liao.....I bought lots of things sia ok actualli not that much la.......I bought a gucci wallet, a leather ah gua bag, a sleeveless jacket, a sunglasses, a scarf, a ring, a band.......went to hai yang gong yuan[HK], xing kua da dao[HK], ya liao street[HK], Mongkok[HK], Stanford hotel[HK]and more......oso went to shi jie zhi chuang[SZ], lao jie[SZ], gao wu gong yuan[SZ], luo hu[SZ], xia mi hu[SZ] and more hahaha.....if u wanna see pics haha go to ting yun's blog www.mememememeandonlyme.blogspot.com k haha update next time........

Eps 71- Wah sian ar

2009-03-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

Sian I shld have shut my damn mouth up lor.......haiz I oso dunno lehz The liu dong treat us veri well but to mi I tink is too well le bah...haiz my past still hinders mi.....I realli felt like a knife cutting up my heart when she din support mi.....haiz I kno she have her own thoughts but I realli wan her to support mi....haiz heart pain going to tear liao.....haiz stupid lor shldnt have sae that sentence....haiz if I din sae I wun kno this thing liao haiz.....somemore Froggy is dragged down into this.....haiz u have repay the favor that u owned mi I find out how she is like le and I totalli felt like giving up liao.....haiz I juz wan someone to support mi like that oso cant mehz.....haiz....wat like that.....JOYLING......or whoever can hlp mi mah.....how come like that I realli dun feel like toking liao haiz suan le la I realli dun wan le I totalli cant bear to see myself hurt again becuz of something ppl dun bother which I bother a lot...de she dun even kno....I sae before le.....one of my prob is I dun like to explain and communicate......I realli have choose wrong liao.....I lost in people's relation......haiz I can onli stay single forever liao........hope someone reply mi soon......

Eps 70 Shen Zhen----dae 1 & 2

2009-03-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

Dae 1----Rainy

Wasnt able to upload alot of pics as the connections here are nt as gd as the Singapore's....but I will upload some whenever I can...
Mi, ZhiXian and ZhongYang and TingYun played DaDi @ the plane......lol the seats are separated mi and zhong yang, ZhiXian wif tingyun lol.......
ZhongYang forgt to bring alot of things sia......lol sibei tuo pattern ar!!! hhahaa we went down the plane and met Catherine last night haha....Mi and ZhiXian one room, Tingyun and Chaiyun one room, ZhongYang and Reuben one room......

Dae 2--Veri Cold 22 degrees

Catherine sae that we are quite lucky as it was veri hot and dry before we arrived @ shen zhen.....after we arrived it's cool and windy.....lol......I spent 500 RMB sia lol cuz I bought my sis wanted de Jacket well it's 250 RMB......ZhiXian helped mi to bargain wif the ppl....and we gt 7 thumbdrives for 230 RMB OMG it's freaking cheap la it's like 12 sing bucks. I oso gt a sun glasses and a wallet haha.......but spent too much for a dae liao will control my spending haha.

Eps 69- Busyzzzzz

2009-02-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

3llo whoever or watever tat actualli looks and read my blog.....okey I have nt been updating.....u wan kno y??? cuz gt lots of things......haha first I gt the e-tickets to ShenZheng wooo yesh......secondly went chalet wif all ex-fisher workers haha.....thirdly went k wif melvan and e regulars......forthly went dinner wif the ex-fishers again haha......fifthly went study wif Froggy.....our one and onli Mr Zhong yang.......lastly which is going to happen on 21th of Feb....OPENSTAGEEEE haha.....I waited for like veri long liao ar.......

ShenZheng E-tickets....
I went to get it wif Chai yun, Zhixian and Reuben......the company even give ur 10 bucks each for to buy drinks on the plane haha...lol 10 bucks haha better than null.....haahaa

Chalet.....
Something I waited quite long...hope for it to come quickly went I paid the money haha......hmmmm Ms Ashley, Ms Luan yen, Ms Sylvia, Mr Boon Kiat, Daryll, ZhiBang ke, Mr Jonathon and lastly Mi....went cycling from Pasir Ris downtown chalet to East coast lol freaking long journey lor haha but everione fought hard to stay alive....the funny thing is that I always forgt to change gear when going up slope....I used the 6th gear to climb a slope sia lol....I couldnt even move 1 m lor lol den they tell mi to use the smallest possible gear lor....den I change to 3rd gear lol guess wat.....I fly like a wind when going upslope haha........we cycle for abt 8 hrs bah....sweats......haha
The first dae was nt interesting cuz mahjong the whole dae......and mi, daryll and Sotong, Lawson din slp and play mahjong....won 20 bucks haha and guess wat I din slp and went for the 8 hrs of cycle which is at nite....and I actualli din slp for 48+ hrs lol.....exhausted......
o0o My Godsis also came to the chalet on the first dae along wif ar I dunno how to spell arrrrrr....sh** I shld have learn my spelling properly when I m at pri sch.......

K-session on the following wk
I kno I kno....going to exams liao....shldnt do so much things haha....well cuz I m going overseas for a long period.....shld sae a proper gdbyes to frens....well for the k session haiz my old prob seems to came back and find mi....luckily it went away when there is abt 1 hr 30 mins left for the k-session haha sang Dan shu wif Melvan and I reached the key....yesh haha dunno kno y haha....

Dinner
Wah after Vocal lessons went dinner wif the ex-fishers....the quene was terrible as it is Valentine's dae eve.....haiz after dinner went to play pool.....wah my luck was real gd sia....win all of them haha....gt lose some but the percentage of winning is like over 80% bah haha den Zhibang ke send us hme....OMG his van.....I will nv sit behind again cuz he braked suddenly and I fly forward....and have a taste of hair...Ashley's.....haha and we jk ard den again wah I tell u ar if I kiss lo ki ar I dunno how to explain liao le....SEE GOD always make mi do this kind of things and ppl always treat mi as pervert becuz of this kind of things......haiz....well nvm la I xi guan liao
and BTW dunno y ppl are staring at mi wif this glare when I m walking on streets....izzit I own them money ar haha lol.....weird lo....

Studying
went study wif Froggy todae wah he study non-stop and keep saying wah fail liao la....dun understand lehz......lol den he ask mi lol den he sae actualli quite easy la haha...haaha true la MCT is easy cuz no nd to memorise mah haha juz remember how to use can liao.....haha
den went play bball wif him....we separate to join rival teams to play 4-4 wah my team totalli sucked lor...okeys I admit maybe they can shoot or score but they cant pass...cuz they dun pass...lol they juz stand there and wait for mi to pass....den I wan to create play they pass to other ppl lol....haiz in the end my team lost lor...siannnnnzzzz

OPENSTAGE
I m still looking forward to it haha....still practising haha will update how it went....haha

Eps 68- Wow....wow....wah lao

2009-01-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

Let's start by toking abt todae's big big thing.....I scolded Weiwen....haha becuz y??? haha becuz he reformatted his thumbdrive wif the LD thing which belongs to Chai Yun....and he did give Chai yun a state diagram, truth table and all, but it's all wrong de....he anyhow do one.....and becuz Chai yun dun kno....so she tot that can work one....and she keep tryin and trying on the wrong thing den after AS she went back to LD lab and I hlped her and found out everithing is wrong de.....at that time wah I felt like telling him liao lor but I kno that scold he oso no use and the impt thing is her LD pbil marks so I quickly hlp dne changed to johnson program oso cant work sia......den she cant hand up on time....den somemore he still di siao Johnson juz becuz of a ring tone and somemore laugh when Johnson is angry.....den oso dunno y he go and bang the metal cupboard.....wah lao realli lor den I say him wu liao.....and he sae wah ni jiang wo wu liao ar....den I sae shi lor bu jian diao bian ren de dong xi den kei ta cuo de dong xi.....den ta bu ke yi jiao liao.....when I sae till here ar he already is in front of mi and take my hand liao....den he keep saying suo yi ni shuo shi wo de cuo la.....wah lao u can imagine lor he's so hot tempered and he cant accept ppl's saying to him and all.....y did he even bothered to pretend to be someone else during the first yr???? I guess correctly again....during dec of last yr I told ting yun to tell him abt his attitude...den he changed abit den I guess how long he can stay that way haha juz as I tot lor it's back to the same old thing again.....the 'aiya ni bu dong de la'....and all the di diao......like he's primary sch like that.....I tink this is due to the ppl that are stick to him.....it's probably caused as the ppl ard everitime ask him to study......and all.... no one dares to tell him wat's wrong and all....onli MI dared to say things to him lor......I mean come on la he's going to be 20 this yr lehz....still behaves like a 14 and below......haiz cant stand him lor.....
dun tok abt him lo....
tok more abt MI MI and more MI....haha I dyed my hair for the first time...if u tink aiya juz dyed nia mah wat's so special abt it....to mi it's something special....becuz firstly it's my virgin hair and secondly I want to tell ppl that I m a changed man.....hhaha I have lots of meanin in dying my hair.....haha
and WE ARE GOING TO SHEN ZHENG WOHOOOszzzzzzz....haha the six are going to shen zheng all from 2B02.....yesh.......I bought a suitcase ytd wif my family.....I oso will be going to hongkong as it's juz one border line away haha......YESH.......and I m realli looking forward to chinese new yr....den chalet den exams den SHEN ZHENG and lastly the FYP.....I finalli gt a chance to show my leadership skills.....haha....YAH.......this will be juz abt it.....haha

Eps 67- Things in christmas wk

2008-12-26T06:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterdae was Christmas and todae is Luo Zhi Xiang's fa pian dae haha his new album.....This few wks was ok except 25th of dec....my family went to visit my grandpa hu juz came back from hospital....he was cryin when we were at his hme....when I m 4- like pri 3 like tat bah mi and my sis stayed at my grand parents cuz my mom and dad is workin....and they took care of mi....and grandma is dotes my sis and my grandpa dotes mi alot.....and I have nv see him cryin in front mi before....this is the sec time I saw him cryin...the first time is I went to hospital to visit him alone den he cried cuz he was tinking of lots and lots of negative stuffs.....den this time haiz....I realli felt sad sia....a person that dotes mi alots sia haiz everitime I visit him I told myslf that I nd to work harder on my dreams cuz I wan him to see his fave grandchild is on stage and I realli wan him to be proud of mi.....and I realli dun wan anyone from my family to leave mi....cuz I realli dun beared to let them leave mi....they doted mi and I realli loved them even though I dun liked to sae it out but I realli loved them no one is allow to take anyone of them away wif or wifout my permission.....

Christmas- I spent it wif family and den went to movie wif buddy, yiling and Zhixian....watched 'YES MAN' haha was funny.....den we went to Jas's house and tok abt relationship and all....haha I m ready to share something wif everione which is a small part of mi that no one see before....well go to 'mi-u-sad-story.blogspot.com' and see one of my stories wif my ex gal fren....haha

and I m still waiting for the sch to call mi for the shen zheng thing lor....

well I m tired I shall go and sleep byebye........

Eps 66- Understanding is so damn difficult

2008-12-16T22:06:00.003+08:00

Past wks I been tinking of a ques.....wat is the diff between 2A02 and 2A01.....I still couldnt find out.....I remember on the dae of the outing....Joyling asked mi if our class can be like them(toking abt Zhong yang's class) I tell her....impossible....even though their class can be quite childish sometimes but they are united and they dun have brood hatred between them.....everione of us have things that they cant tell someone in the class cuz the other person will angry and all.....there's no way....till here another ques pop up in my mind.....in this world does anyone knows mi well.....if u sae yesh.....aiya shld be easy.....den I will give u a challenge...
What is my like and dislike toward my birthdae and other ppl's??? anyone kno pls tagged my blog cuz if it's the correct ans I will give u something....haha
Second...list out the 4 ppl that I had/have realli LIKED....
Lastly.....y do I wan to be singer??? haha shld be easy la haha.....
till here I found out realli no one kno mi well....onli one sentence can describe mi....NV judge a book by it's cover.....
Now I tot of something that has disturb and affect my life for 4 yrs lor like Zhong yang sae I shld give up a long time lor....somehow I still remember the dae I kno her....specially thnks to tian cai he intro mi to her....she everitime gt this stern face like she that dae veri suai like that haha but when she smile everithing is diff lor.....that's y I liked to sae hi to her{Even though I still hope I can do that but lots of things happened} I like to her smile....that happened like when I was sec 3 which is like 2004 like tat bah haha sequently indirectly quarrel wif Zhi xian{2005} den shi hai{2006} abt her but she's nt the cause haha....it's time to sae gd bye to her fro my life.....it's time to move on lor....I realli like the randomness of hers and quiet and noisy moments even though I have nv seen them but fro her blog can imagine all...her entries nv fails to bright up my dae....she might nt care hu and wat I m....well something all things and ppl dun care abt my feelings and all so I gt used to it le....jiu suan everione dun care as long as I care no one can influence.....wo jiu shi xi huan wo xing wo su haha that dae outing zhong yang mention abt her and everione starts asking her and all haha bet she always havin a cold bah haha

Eps 65- 291108

2008-12-06T16:15:00.002+08:00

On 28/11/08 which is a fri(last dae of sch), ting yun and shilah shocked mi....cuz they gave mi presents sia lol...haha wo zhang na mo da first time receive presents from frens....that are gals(for birthdae)......ting yun gave mi something veri big which I will nv forgt.....and shilah, she give mi something that I will nd but will nv use cuz is ppl give one haha.....
The Actualli Dae---I received lots of ppl's wishes and blessings....most are gals haha.....here I mz comment on Waihao....y??? becuz he promised to sent a birthdae email and realli did sent....dun see him like gu niang gu niang like tat but he's actualli the man of our class ar haha.....well still have to study for the exams which is on 1/12/08 haha of course it's over le.....dun ask mi how is it??? cuz I felt the pprs are okay but I din work as hard so muz chiong chiong chiong lor.....

Eps 64-......5......more......days....

2008-11-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

3llo ppl.....whoever's reading.....it's so fast....so fast I have live on the nice and friendly for 19th solid years....[going to be 19 on some dae of Nov] this yr is special cuz my lunar and english birthdae is on the same day.....haha....but the bad thing is MST are juz 2 freaking daes behind my birthdae.....after this birthdae it's 4 more yrs to my promise le...I still have time....I wan to see everione's jaw dropping down haha......when I fulfill my dream....haha I wan everione to dream and go for it too!!! that's wat I wan....nowsaday ppl are using 'impossible' this word too much....y cant I fulfill my dream....I can gt GPA of 3.5 y cant I gt my dream.....even if 4 yrs ltr I havent fulfill it I will still tried and tried.....I have the spirit of hope in mi.....but do u have it........hahaha.....still 5 more daes.......till my bday....haha and I m 19 hmmmm one yr older liao....realli muz tong shi liao....all the feel and rhythm and technique.....

Eps 63- Review

2008-11-15T23:38:00.002+08:00

This week was damn fun....y??? cuz tried new things...done gd thing....finished things....hand up things.....bond things......befrens wif things...lol jkin..........this wk mi, wai hao, Ian, Joyling, Ting yun and shilah....o0o and Johnson....we were choosing our FYP topics......and so we nd to attend 2 of the talks......we went in the first session of Environment Crisis...which ended at abt 330pm...den we went to Automotive electronics....but we went in the wrong session{cuz shld be 3pm -4pm for the first session and 4-5 the second session so add up is 2 talks mah}haha we went both first sessions and marked our attendance lol.....Johnson sae they will tink y this ppl can split into halves ar go 2 sessions at diff venues at the same time....lol
den after that I tell them I going donate blood den wai hao sae u donate blood ar....den he went wif mi cuz he sae he actualli wan to donate last yr but nd dunkno wat form la cuz he still under 18 last yr....den mi,wai hao and Johnson we donated blood....ting yun, shilah and Joyling went wif us {ting yun donated blood the next following dae...}the needle was quite thick...imagine ppl that had to have needles poked into their body....OMG it's realli.....haiz I couldnt even find a word to describe{even though my vocab is limited}....so if u can and if u wan pls hlp by donating blood....or something la juz hlp will do haha.....moods gting better and better....den on fri....it's the sport's dae....Firman and Aidil and Yuan feng joined us our class play hard....fought hard....quarrel hard.....tried hard.....but nv win hard hahaha.....we play the marble thing even though we lost but we realli tried and tried especially the second team....den the captain ball....haha realli frustrating....we quarrel wif referees and our opponent OMG haha but the referees realli sucked sia.....haiz and we played the jump over thing haha we broke record...45 secs.....haha.......my voice seems recovering after the long period of strange voice.....hahaha stilll gt one more thing I nearly forgt.....I handed up MY OITP form liao haha I M GOING SHEN ZHENG AND HONG KONG YESH.....

Eps 62- Saw her

2008-11-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

Todae my topic is abt my hair.....I went and cut my hair.....my hairstylist William....he realli veri gd wif his hands cuz he juz adjusted my hair a little and it looks real gd....is my styling gt prob liao...well I will try to style other ways lor but have to update my styling first.....den sec thing is my mum sae din change lehz....T_T OMG I nearly want to quarrel wif her liao le cuz my back is short den my front is cut but nt short either.....den u kno wat she sae....she sae my front too long......lol.....den sae my upper part too thick......lol....realli sia sometimes I realli wonder will she died juz becuz of givin some gd comments abt my hair cuts......OMG I realli sian qu liao lor......den I saw someone todae after my haircut.....I m nt going sae hu.....I dunnoe if she saw mi.....but I definitely saw her......I was hopin nt to see her....for some reasons when I saw her I quickly siam lor.....and my heart was like beating......IS REALLI BEATING hor.....is like beat hard once and then twice....rhythmic.....JOYLING I REALLI LIKE HER LA NT OBSESSED WIF HER......haha u are wrong........

Eps 61- Fun and Fun and fun

2008-11-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

The last few wks I been persuading Ian and all to go shenzheng nt becuz I wan to go but cuz we can go as a grp mah....I oso hope we can go as a class lor....cuz shenzheng and hk is like one line diff nia den Ian suggest OITP go shenzheng as a class lor den nw he sae he dun tink he going lor LOL haha I will try to ask them to go one....tingyun ok liao shilah pending Ian pending ahBoon pending khoonYew oso pending.....haha I m realli excited abt going yr 3 and all choosing modules and all cuz it's new to mi mah....hope can gt wat I wan lor....this past few wk I learn lot of things and heard lots of news....Yuan lai she is waiting for mi to tok to her...yuan lai everione knos liao....I finalli kno y shilei oways used tat kind of yan shen look at mi liao....I realli shocked sia when I hear the news den ppl's telling I shld do this and this and that...well hmmm to mi I still wat I choose to do I correct....my frens all will kno y I made this choice and I hope she knos too....haha still gt 22 more daes....

Eps 60- HSM3 last lor

2008-10-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Todae watched HSM3 by myslf.....everyone ard mi either sae I m crazy or asked mi to find fren to go wif mi.....well my classmates dun like HSMs....frens din like to watch too.....din wan them to juz accompany mi......so I went along and watch the show even though it's weird when I went in the cinema theatre but when I was inside I observed other ppl......den I tot of y HSMs attracted ppl to watch so I watch it and realli enjoy everi songs and all.......even though ppl can kno fro the title HSM3: Senior yr....but becuz at the end of the show the main cast was out for a curtain call which usualli in theatre language means that it's the end of the show......and becuz this time rd it's realli in musical form all the dance and props moving and all giving the audience a real musical experiences.....therefore there shldnt be no more HSM4 le bah....shld be lah.....the songs were gd better den the last one.....the dance choreography was realli the best out of the 3....story-based it's can sae it's better den the first 2.....cuz I can feel more of everione's characters and personalities coming out......well after watching I went hme and wrote a song...call 一个人 haha....dun tink that it's a slow and sad song......nope it's my specialty....thaat's born wif mi....haha it's a fast song....a bit of rock...it's more suited for a duet I guess cuz of the lyrics.....haha....nxt time den upload bah haha.......

Eps 59- Lots of thoughts

2008-10-26T01:12:00.002+08:00

Ytd I went to Ting yun's birthdae chalet.....met some of her frens....shilin, penny, violet, guohua, shiwei, zixian, edmund, hao yi, linqi..shld be all of them la.....first let's tok abt my embarrassment bah.....I went there I saw her frens cuz she told mi that they all wearing same t-shirt.....den I din dared to walk there lor....cuz so many strangers....my mum did tell mi nt to tok to strangers orhz haha.....den saw shilin first.....finalli gt to see her ....she seem nt as tall as I thought she shld be and she looked average to mi .....den saw violet and guohua.....heard from their conversation that they are actualli an item....dne saw penny......I observed her alot...I tink that she is veri man....in a sense that she will be anything for her frens one no matter wat....yup nt that she is nt feminine and she is quite friendly and cute too.....shiwei, edmund and haoyi and zixian den came along....hmmmm shiwei is much pretty face to face......her eyes are BIG....haha edmund was ok quite friendly too....haoyi is actualli shilin's bf haha...yup and zixian din tok to her much....so din kno much abt her.....as for linqi.....haha she sae she couldnt recognised mi at first sia haha....more handsome or more more handsome haha....I reached there at abt 820+ pm den went hme at 2313pm.......actualli I realli couldnt sense any happy in tingyun...even though she is like smiling and all.....I dun kno how to describe lehz she juz dun seem herslf.....maybe is her bf din went ytd....that's y bah......yup and my gift is veri cool haha I tink cuz the function is veri unique haha.....hope she likes it.....well after her bd is Khoon yew's den I tink is emily's , sasa's, wanni's, naomi's, den nicole and mine (mi and nic shared the same bd) haha.......time is realli moving fast my 5 yrs promise is counting down to 4 yrs liao.....I m going 19 soon le but my album is still nowhere near.....nt to sae my concert is way far lor....haha but fear nt cuz nth is impossible I will create my own destiny and path de.....

Eps 58- 小酒窝

2008-10-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

Todae I will recommend this song called 小酒窝 by JJ & Ah Sa....u can feel wat the song is realli trying to tell u.....speaking of feel....this week mi and Jin quan each sing our songs den Alex sae I gt sing dao the emotions come out......which means it's gd.....nw it's back to wat I wan and wat I feel and wat I always can....from EpicStage to Hark's music I proved one thing I realli gt a little bit of talent in terms of singing wat I feel...to mi I felt it's realli easy.....I tink is becuz [if u kno mi well I actualli cant speak well in front of the gal I like....I onli can and will watch her from far ] which oso means I cant express myslf well wif words so from small I express my feelings[dun care if I m happy or sad] thu music....I tink everione oso can de no matter u shi lian or u kana lottery haha both works.....to mi music is a tool to speak how I felt all this yrs....all the things including family, relationship, friendship.....happy moments.....sad moments....lots of things....haha that's y I have to learn keyboard....becuz that's when I can express my feelings thu compose and write songs and sing them out....haha yup.......

Eps 57- Lots of work for singer

2008-10-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

Todae watched yu le bai fen bai....wah saw BY2 la.....Xiao Hong Ren.....I see them ar I onli can tink of one thing.....I nd to learn more things if I wan to be like them......I calculate liao the dae of my last vocal lessons is juz nxt yr nia....den I will learnin piano and guitar.......and even more things ltr......haha BY2 kno how to dance veri well and they can play piano and violin.......Xiao Hong Ren I onli kno he can play piano veri well....and his voice has gt this wide range and power lor.....seem like veri far from where I been standing.....4 yrs and 50 daes still counting down
so fast left 4 yrs to my dream.......seem realli veri fast I still remember the words I sae last yr.....
Well let's nt tok abt something that is in the near future....let tok abt my GPA....haha{see my words u already kno liao rite}....yup improved le....overall 3.32 something....this sem I gt 3.5 liao which is my target....was happy....Yesterdae went to pub wif Melvan...Edmund...Deric...Anthony...Deric's Gf...and 2 of their frens.....was lost again cuz their frens sae it behind Central lol....den I brought them to north bridge rd and din kno that the pub was juz near by....lucky my instinct was correct and I brought them to the rite place but lots of things happen along the way.....wah u kno their fren hor he go in den gt one chio bu tok to him liao lol.....he look average but he sure kno how to tok the talk...lor......and in the end he gt her no. lol.........o0o btw my vocal teacher he wanna let mi go on stage for the open mic session....I m so damn happy lor....I hope it's realli a chance....I will realli cherish it de.....my vocal improved alot since I changed my sch to Harkmusic....nt becuz EpicStage nt gd but is the teaching method suit mi more but nw I can apply the knowledge I gt from Chengyao{my former vocal teacher} liao....haha if I tell Randy he will be happy for mi de.....haha I din kno how to go back and visit him but will find a chance de....

Eps 56- 是不是这样的夜晚你才会这样的想起我

2008-09-21T15:42:00.002+08:00

Wah it's 15 daes after my 55th posts.....I tink no one will reading my blog due to my inconsistent of blogging.....this past 2 wks went out a few times.....went to Bishan park and celebrate mooncake festival wif the poly 50 peeps.....haha which is Ian, Weiwen, Naomi, Kris, Tianying, Shilei, Ting lei, Li ling, William, Julian, Weilong, Jojo, and I tink I forgt liao la quite a number of peeps but dun worry I din forgt u all de faces but I juz forgt hu went la haha......den went Top1 wif Melvan, Edmund, Deric, Michele and Anthony.....sing alot of songs haha...and we recorded songs too.....den this wk went to meet Zhibang to gt some advice from him for composing songs cuz my vocal teacher Alex sae...at least muz learn an instrument + my vocal or vocal + dance.....haha I gt to learn Keyboard nw lor ......den went to cut hair gt this realli nice haircut....I dunno others but I reali love it....den o0o mi and Zhibang we sing lot of songs but time is short....den I learn this song '是不是这样的夜晚你才会这样的想起我' haha the title gt 17 words lehz haha veri long lor....is sing by 吴宗宪 and this song rite the voice is totalli diff from his voice sia....this song is out at yr 1987 OMG I oso havent been born yet....heard that this song is veri 'hong' at that time....

Eps 55- Wah so dammmn long nv blog lo

2008-09-06T01:56:00.002+08:00

Ok...so long nv blog lo....I was busy preparing exams....other den the 1st ppr the rest was okay.....exams nt much to tok abt la...somemore holidae liao dun tok abt exams lo.....last wk wednes....work to setup speakers for the IT show 'comex' was quite fun cuz everione putting in efforts......den din do much after that day till last wk sunday....hlp to packed and take down the speakers..... den wk till 4am in the morning sia haiz I was damn frustrated at everione's planning....the planning at lvl 6 was nt gd too slow....den somemore we shld have take lvl 1 first...cuz haiz mi and waihao we have to find the last exit to take down the speakers den we went rd the whole Suntec building to find one exit......saw 3 ppl at comex wking.....Meifang....Cheryl.....and one more is I dun kno wat's her name haha in SP de....haha....well this wk was sian sian.....cuz nth to do ar except tennis and 黑糖群俠傳 haha it's a show la wif ya tou and lots of ppl in it haha was veri funny....and the song wang zi sing one was nice......I m going to chase this damn freakking gd show....tml is the premiere of Camp rocks! Go watch bah disney channel subscribers haha hope it's a gd show....haha gd luck for ur exams results lor guys....

Eps 54- Poly five zero???2???

2008-08-14T00:54:00.004+08:00

All the guys and gals..Runners and winners
FINISHED....haha
This post is a continuous post of eps 54...

Eps 54- Poly five zero???

2008-08-14T00:07:00.003+08:00

This is a random shot but gt Mi at the corner
Wan man giving the souvenir to weiwen
Can u spot the person I liked in this pic
Ian receiving the souvenir for us from Wan man
The new frens of SOKA

W'sup This is b3n......todae we will be toking poly50's dae and national day and recent stuffs.....
first:start wif poly five zero.....our class run under SOKA named seagull 5 Subaru....but things are nt smooth....on the 40 somethings rd....Sam goes down wif a stomache....well for mi...his absence changed my life...cuz I stood up and taking up the challenge of 9 ppl running 50 rds( of course everione take up the challenge)but my body wasnt tired even after running the 50 rds....I break out of mental and physical limits.....all of us{Yuan feng, Ian, Aidil, Johnson, Khoon yew, Mi, Ting yun, Shila, Rabia} we din give up and finished 45th and become the first team to finish within the SOKA's Student Division...we all are damn proud of ourselves....well I pity Sam cuz poly50 is nt a experience that we can see everiday....diff ppl can learn diff things in poly50 well....let's hope that his bad luck will soon worn off....
Second: The National dae was gd but I was sick again cuz I nv listen to doc's advice to finish the antibodies lor....I deserves it one la haha.....den whole family's out except mi cuz I realli dun wan to go anywhere on that dae....
Third: Recently....
Mi, weiwen and Ian...we handed in our mini project to mdm soo liao...was gd lor gt 88 marks...den hlped Joyling to debug their program lor.....theirs was easier bah I tink....

Tennis is progressing better and better.....even though I had no one to teach mi but figured out quite a num of things....serve is gtting more power and consistent...strokes are nt my thing but at least I can control the direction of the ball to where I wan them to be....my best is still serve&volley....I read up on it and did it once to edwin.....my reactions was gd against him....but dunnoe against other pros will work a nt....

Abt her.....haha Ian and Naomi is like telling mi to tok to her more la and all such of stuffs....but guess wat I saw her again todae....it's like fate lor cuz I went to buy drinks mah den saw vendin mach but nt working....so I went to another vendin mach near fc 1 den I saw her walking out of the toilet toking to her fren haha she din see mi haha she so cute lor....den bought my drinks wanted to see can see her again so went peeking into fc 1 but I cant see her....den I decided to go back lor I staarted walking till the blue glass door near fc 1 I turned back I saw her again this time dunno she gt see mi a nt haha I quickly turned and walked as normal....I tot she behind mi den I turned again at T2 there she gone liao haiz....haha quite a story huh!!!

Eps 53- 原谅我

2008-08-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

Todae wake up early(not veri early la actualli...11am) to prepare to go back sch and play tennis with the WALL...haha serve and serve lor....my serve is getting smoother and faster but still the consistency has nt improve.....have to find a way lor....try to play serve&volley style like eiji kikumaru fro POT den play till veri long gt 2 ppl come into the court and start playing....haha guess wat time I reach hme 1616pm.....haha I played 4 hrs of tennis alone haha I m realli a weird person haha......den went hme and start recording song.....I recorded my own version of 原谅我 by 萧敬腾....was ok la but I nd to improve on it......I tried to find ways to upload it but failed I will continue find ways and means to upload it de.......den abt her....I tink I shld nt tell her...cuz she is like a blur sheep....I tink to her world is nt going to accept mi ...I realli m veri cautious upon taking a step cuz I scared that she will be affected by my confession to her......den alot of things are going to happen......becuz I realli like her that's y I realli din wan it to happen her....I wan her to be the blur blur forgtful everione dotes de her......I m a man...so I rather nt let her kno......she will always be her....till that day die........

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Eps 52- I m Sick, sick, sick...

2008-08-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday, something veri shocking happened..mi and wei wen we quarrelled...for the first time....he sae lots of things saying I dun tink abt wat other ppl's tinking and feelings...actualli he is correct therefore I apologised to him..he apologised to mi too...but I tink that is nt needed la cuz I m realli wrong lor....cuz to mi I tot that everione was alrite wif it....cuz no one ever tell mi in my face.....den somemore I having competition mah den at hme practise den parents sae too noisy at sch oso cant practise cant practise alone cuz ppl tink I siao one...haiz and somemore sometimes I feel that maybe is I realli cant sing lor den that's y ppl feel irritated cuz when Aidil sings den no one sae anything....haiz this time rd I m outed again hhaiz I wun participate in competitions liao cuz I tink that no matter how gd or bad there will be ppl that is better den mi lor...haiz frankly speaking I gd at nth sia....running I cant....bball I cant.....singing I cant.....tennis haiz I oso cant.....I tinks I m gd at alot of things but actualli there is always ppl better den mi lor......haiz.....lots of things happened this week....I feeel like juz a piece of shit that cant do anything gd enuff.....I realli cant stand myslf losing to ppl but I cant win them one lor...haiz....den yesterdae Naomi knows hu's SHE liao....haiz she asked mi whether wan to let her see a nt....well guess wat's my ans.....of course nt la.....beside I actualli tot lots of things liao.....hmmmmm like if she start avoiding mi den I how sia....den if she knows already den I can do wat lehz....asked her to be my gf lol of course nt la she final yr liao even if she likes mi
we can be togther for how long....beside I m jealous all the time one lor.....and if she dun like mi den she still wans to be fren wif mi den wat m I going to say to her after my confession....and beside poly50 trainin onli left one more till the final day....which I onli can see her for the last 2 times nia....wat's the pt of letting her kno....at least nw to her....she at least treat mi like a fren lor....like her kno liao the chance of her falling for mi is veri little nia lehz....haiz dunno let her kno will be the gd choice.....haiz like my title sae I m sick again.....oso dunnoe y....play tennis wif edwin(a fren I kno when playing tennis) haiz lost to him again....

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Eps 51- Sad sad sad days

2008-07-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterdae was super duper forgtful lor.....late for maths den nvm lehz forgt to bring laptop for OOP test....din went to find one...the teacher was like shoutin at mi to go find....well dun tink that I wan to fail that's y I din bring my laptop...I was realli totalli forgtten abt it liao lor.....den I was tinking wat if fate din wan mi to pass my OOP...haha that's y I din go and find lor...somemore everione I called either din listen or din have laptop....but weiwen and mdm soh hlp mi asked one of her students to loan mi his laptop on a condition to give him 20 bucks after the whole thing.....guess wat my OOP test was damn easy for mi.....and I surely can ACED it haha....I finished the test in 1 hr and that guy hu loan mi his laptop gt his laptop back and I gave him 20 bucks....everione was shocked...cuz they tot mdm soh was jkin abt it...but I gave it is becuz I wan myslf to remember that I forgt to bring laptop for a test.....den after the test was the presentation for the gems....was okay la the marks 86/100....den waited for her appearance at plaza cuz I heard weiwen tok to Naomi that she will be there at 5 pm like that lor....den I waited and waited till 545pm I go toilet and gt an intuition that she will be there when I go back to the plaza....den she was quiet as usual and start drawing she asked mi to hlp but I din cuz I juz wan to see her nia...dne went for vocal class....the teacher was gd and he taught wat I wan to kno on the first lesson....it's a gd start la but is it going to last that's another thing ....den actualli I asked practically everione for wan man's no cuz my call couldnt reach her mah.....den finalli gt her no. liao call her ask her if they all went back le mah she sae yesh...haiz I actualli wans to go back and give them some encouragement one lor but haiz they went back liao.... den todae was late for poly50 trainin for an hr den went to run lor without any warm up and anything....veri diff lor the whole of my right leg was numb and tremblin...of course I din tell anyone and juz continue running....till abt 20 something rd my body den is warm up and I continue and ride on my pace run....I continuously run rounds lor givin others more time to rest...den they sing song lor and give encouragements and all lor den when they are abt to cheer that time I walked away...cuz my lungs were acting strange.....I went to the toilet and all.....actualli I realli cant take it during the early 20 something rds cuz my heart and lungs and legs are givin mi lots of probs and they hurts lor....that's y I din tok much ...I tink some of them kno something's wrong wif mi den keep asking mi can a nt...I appreciated it but I have to finish wat I have started mah that's y I din tell lor haha....abt her right I oso wat to do lor....onli 2 more trainin + actual thing liao I dun kno how....she like gt something to sae to mi lor the way she looked at mi..haiz...dunno how....den somemore the audition is a few daes away I realli to gt into the finale to sing wo ai de ren cuz I realli hope she will come and see lor haiz but the probability is veri little nia.....I juz realli hope that she kno my feelings can liao cuz I m like nt going to see her everi weds and sats liao den mi and her talks la but veri little lor....I still remember something that realli hurts mi one lor I wun forgt how they rejected mi on singing my special for them....I wun forgt de.....everione that knos mi kno that I loved to sing a special for my frens on their birthdae lor haiz......haiz lots of things happen la I oso dunno how to face it la.....going to exam liao muz study liao.....haiz

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Eps 50- Compete???

2008-07-22T09:13:00.002+08:00

Todae I was doing CA PBIL wif Ian den suddenly feel like blogging...in the end...I din kno wat to write...den din blog liao....haha but after the OOP lesson I found out something....wat's the difference between mi and wei wen....he's reliable, humble, encouraging....and more lor.....I m totally opposite of him.....cuz when I gt 100 for OOP lab quiz ar I was happy den teacher like shock like that haha in the end whole class kno I scored 100 lol....haiz my habit cant change sia muz change liao...den she todae sent an email to mi tot wat sia...chey she send to everione haha.....haiz oso dunno if she kno my existence a nt cuz she seems blur everitime I saw her...den she is like that kind of ppl that will be veri funny and more participating wif close frens one....I kno I kno muz slowly slowly rite.....well sometimes when she is alone spacing that time ar I realli wan to go and tok to her one lehz but the words cant come out like I wan it to lor...well like the other 5 ppl I realli liked....nervous and excitement when I saw her lor...same lor juz that this time I like the way she looked at mi...haha when I jkin wif everione den doing some strange funny things that time....she will have this look in her eyes....haha LOVED that look dunnoe if she's the one a nt but I hope she is la...cuz nt much time left liao....hahahaha......(onli myslf kno wat that means)...tml going to see her again.....oso dunno wat to do....am I content juz see her on every wed and sat.....haiz maybe yesh maybe no....I oso dunnoe but one thing is for sure...she wun have time to space cuz I will jk and di siao her one haha.....

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Eps 49- all abt mi

2008-07-21T01:18:00.002+08:00

Todae I was tinkin of wat song to sing for the competition I was joining....actualli I was considering nt joining cuz I dun wan to repeat the fate of last yr where Aidil gt into the nxt rd and I din...haiz but shila she said that sometimes she feels that mi and aidil are veri courageous cuz at least we dare to sing in front of ppl....haha actualli she's right lor....I mean I kno that if I out in the first rd, at least I tried my best mah...haha so I decided to join for the sake of everione that loves singing juz as much or even more den mi....everione is saying aidil will be winning this yr....hmmmm actualli I oso tink so....but I will still try to make it to sec rd de haha....hmmmm I tot of saying fei ni mo shu lor cuz alot of feel recently mah haha...but the judge will cry a nt is another thing haha.....if I gt in I will sing bei pan.....that is if I gt in haha....

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Eps 48- Ah Gar's back from hospital...lor

2008-07-19T00:08:00.005+08:00

Todae I went to pick up ah Gar from hospital...he's gt a disease tat cuz him to fall into coma....luckily the doctors there were gd they could fix him up and he has awaken from his deep slp...abt my life recently...hmmmmm started playing tennis for abt 3 wks....I played on mondae tues and thurdae.....mondae and tues I played myslf....thursdae I played wif khoon yew....we both beginners haha becuz we 2 are of same standards that's y we give a hard time for each other....in the end I manage to win khoon yew wif forehand moves......still trying to improve my backhand.....haha and serve.....hope to join beginners' class soon haha....tennis' fun.....nw if u wonder wat happen to basketball....well I m nt going to play bball no more....becuz I couldnt find no one that has the same amount of passion as mi.....haha well tennis is the sport that suit mi more......hmmmm abt poly 50.....I finalli felt tired le after all the trainin....I joined poly 50 is to prove to some ppl that there is no limits.........even if we lost but as long as we give everithing we've gt we have no regrets....and my decision to join was correct...I met lots of ppl that had the same thinking....Eric, Naomi, HER, Wan man, Shi lei, Kris, Jiang liang, Benjamin(nt mi ar), and lots of ppl....our class is oso running....haha....onli ppl wif firm minds and hearts are asked to join.....I tink I will miss all the ppl in SOKA cuz they are so frendly and caring....I like to tok to them a lot.....as for my last entry....everithing is going wat I tink will happen....haha....I actualli discussed wif Wei wen and he sae that they will change lor....U 3 better live up the expectations of Wei wen and be glad that alot of ppl is actualli hlping u all...well I m saying this becuz I nt angry liao or wat but I m disappointed till no hopes for them liao so to mi it's okay whether I gt less 3 ppl in my class or remain the same......well let's nt tok abt it lor.....I recently found out that whenever I saw HER ar I will be excited and wans to tok to her and make her laugh(cuz I like to see the way she laugh veri cute)haha....I like someone lor....all this yrs...actualli I onli liked 6 ppl....including HER.....the rest is I see them pretty or cute den anyhow sae one hahahaha and den everione believed mi haha......btw the match between Roger Federor(world's no. 1) and Nadal(world's no. 2) at Wimbledon's was the greatest match I have ever seen..the match lasted for nearly 5 hrs...haha they are so gd la.....haha tired lor....gts liao tml gt poly 50 trainin.....BTW ah Gar's my laptop haha......Gotcha!!!!

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Eps 47- Nth can be done no more!!!

2008-06-28T01:37:00.002+08:00

TO ppl that kno mi well............well I doubt anyone will kno mi well........have anyone ever noticed that when I m being out done...I became nth den started nt toking...Is nt I dun wan to tok is I chu le ke yi ran ren xiao.....I hai ke yi zuo she mo....u guys sae de things oso nt my topic....wat can I do???I believe everitime I dim dim den ppl start asking mi y like tis y like tat....but I always sae nth la....even if I sae oso no use...u all can do it mehz....In my life...No one have ever given mi any support nor encouragement...no one...I remember Shila ask mi y I onli sae sad songs....the reason is becuz I have nv been happy before...when ppl gt probs no matter wat if I can hlp I will hlp....but when I gt prob no one wan to care a damn wif mi....everione is like tat....this is y I tok so much is juz wan u guys care abt mi a bit more nia but no one care a damn....dun sae my friends even my family dun care.....no one notices mi....that's y everitime I count on myself den on others....orh rite wat abt my dreams....haha I bet ppl hu see my blog are ppl that wan to see how stupid and silly m I rite...juz wan to laugh at mi behind my back.....saying that I m doing the impossible....cant anyone give mi any real support and encouragement...I m an average guy I kno...but I dun wan to be like this anymore....if ppl dun care abt mi dun even kno my existence den I tink I will give a damn abt ppl liao....y shld I care so much hlp u so much then after that u all juz treat mi as a person hu is eat glass grow up one....I dun trust anyone no more le.....no person on earth is worth my damn freaking trust....y shld I try to fit into something that is nt my size.....all I did everithing is juz to be notice.....even if abit I oso happy but after all this yrs I realli sian liao....realli sian liao.....Lawson, Sam and Daryll u all died or drop out for the course is ur own business liao u wan to play that match or nt is nt a concern liao no pt....when u all are juz trying to pei he mi nia....I realli m disappointed at u all....each and everione of u all....Sam and Lawson both have same pattern...so they died their business....As for Daryll I oso dun kno y u angry wif Ian lor...wat's the pt lor...u are an outsider in their relationship...wat u angry over such small things lehz...u angry liao they be back togther mehz.....This is my last advice to U all 3 liao as for the rest of the ppl hu kno mi...nono is ppl hu kno my name....I will change my talkative ways liao...no pt continuing trying to gt ppl to notice when these ppl dun even care a damn abt u!!! no pt!!!

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Eps 46- WTF!!!

2008-06-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

Todae's maths' exams was fairly easy....all of it I can do except for the last ques haha 5 marks one....I was abit sianed-out when yesterdae de her was nt at FC4 toddae cuz wan to gt her no. one first time I gt initiative go take ppl's no. hor.....den nvm somemore the wed's friendly is near den somemore out of 5 ppl 4 bears grudge against the other......haiz oso dunno how to settle...and dunnoe how to perform that dae ar...somemore when I call Randy todae tell him my decision then he sae that I need to tell him a month notice to quit the course and he sae that he told us that this 6 months course...we cant quit....lol...den he sae abt wat integrity of the students and nt fair to students and the teacher.....if I m the person I m before I worked in Fisher I will definitely nt quit and continue the 2 months but nw I will onli take one step back nia...becuz to mi I dun wan to do things that I cant confirm my improvement in my singing....so I decided since he wan one month notice I will juz stay for a month....I will hold on to watever my dreams and will definitely wan cheng it cuz I have nv been this selfish and nt thought of ppl's feelings...so todae I will be selfish even if ppl tink of mi as someone no integrity...

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Eps 45- Exams todae!!!

2008-06-23T13:59:00.002+08:00

Todae is 23 June 08---OOP exams todae....dunno wat will come out lehz the past yr ppr quite easy lehz but dunno todae's de ppr difficult mah...haha tml maths liao...tonite chiong maths lor....tinking abt ACS nw haha...fun when I learned alot by reading ACS's textbk....dunno hu called mi todae...di siao mi nia lor....haiz nows-a-days de ppl ar......haiz todae saw two gals lor quite pretty gt figure...tot she be my fate haha but saw her oso no feeling lehz sia lor....I have gt to keep searching....haha....everione jiayou for the MST lor....

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Eps 44- Exams!!!

2008-06-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Ello everione!!! I had made my decision and have registered with Hank's music loh....even though I had to leave all the ppl I knew in EpicStage Academy but I had to do it....I have to fulfill my dream....haha zhibang met mi yesterdae to register at hank's music den he encourage mi to take up the prep class as to jump stages lor haha actualli I oso nt that confident if I can skip steps mah haha....well we'll see...btw I been toking abt having a gf to accompany mi to watch movie haha veri silly rite haha cuz I nth to do so dun care mi haha.....tml's exams lor....dun tink can score this time cuz din study much juz like last yr's MST 1 like tat....well I will see wat will motivate mi to chiong my studies like last yr but the results muz be better den last yr.....recently found out that as I gt older my mindset realli changed lots sia nt like last time liao nw cared abt ppl's feelings more and can understand things more.....nt as impulsive either in relationships or in terms of treating ppl {hope so bah} haha....my heart dun seeem much like last yr lehz last yr was like wanting to find a gf alot....but this yr even though saw a few my type one but nw to mi no feelings means NO feelings lehz and I wun go intro myslf and do anything to know that gal...nope I wun...I have realli change but still I will search for no.3 one haha hope to meet my no.3 soon........

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Eps 43- My decision!!!

2008-06-20T01:00:00.003+08:00

Ello guys!!! I m totally sianed-out todae cuz I myself have faced my own probs in my vocal lessons and I realised that my improvement is nt wat I wanted...I have not much time left...5 yrs de Nov 29th I've gt to gt my concert going...it's my dream....I've always wanted it but my learnin in EpicStage is slowing mi down for my concert...I dunno it's my understanding prob or my teacher's teaching prob but I realised that I have to change either the teacher or my vocal sch....I told Randy juz nw that I m considering changing my environment and he told mi lots of things and asked my vocal classmate , Alicia, she oso tink that if I realli wan to fulfill my dream I shld realli change sch and see if it helps....I have yet to ask Jacky...I wanted to ask them becuz it involve them as my class originally is 4 ppl one den one gone liao become 3 ppl den if I go den they cant continue...I have gt to respect ppl's decisions and gt to pave my way...In my heart, the decision had already been made but I dunwan my decision to affect so many ppl....the sch I considering is HANK's MUSIC zhibang's sch dunnoe wat to do hlphlp....everyone....

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Eps 42 - Life is back!!!

2008-06-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

Ello!!!Guys, I so long nv blog lor...haha the reason is becuz I had to do some adjusting for the surrounding ard mi....If u dun understand wat I mean...I juz mean I been tinking everithing abt mi and the ppl that had done something to mi, which changed the way I tink...like humans desires toward own survival more den anything...in order to survive, anything even if it's something against ur own conscience, u will do in it....we humans are definitely veri imperfect at all...I hated my natural abilities sometimes....I learn lots of things in the past few months...esp abt myslf..... I find out that I actualli can read someone actions and kno wat that person is tinking....I learn that actualli I learns new things veri quickly after I become more calm.....but I oso suddenly realised that ppl that survived are ppl with abilities and experience....so I made a promised nt to step into an office after my attachment....I dun wan to hai ren.......last month was the blue month as all the bad habit started to show even more...late for class....nt attending for CA classes....having fun everidae....it seems like I dun care a damn at all to anything....but from todae U WILL NV SEE MI LIKE THIS NO MORE...everithing will be back lor cuz I m mi again an improved mi....a thinking mi and one more thing I forgt to sae tok to mi wif caution cuz I can kno wat ur character is while toking to UR things dun tink I stupid one....ar haha I will start analyze ppl soon...already found my target lor haha of course that person is nt one of my readers la haha......MADA MADA DANE.......

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Eps 41- Happy hapy happy2

2008-04-25T01:16:00.002+08:00

Todae was quite a happy dae cuz overall things went well....firstly classes are ok except the CA teacher he teaches in detail which is gd but too detail will become slow....maybe others dun understand bah but I observe him and the class and wanted to find out 2 things....firstly is that does anyone is listenin to him...secondly how can he teach an hr onli 3 slides that is ridculous....haha dun tok abt him lor tok abt other lecturers....like Mr Ho....todae we do the expt1 wah Mi and Ian do till du lan ar....becuz the test 2 so easy lor and when he tell us the ans that time wah we sian qu liao lor haiz sian well at least I kno nxt time wun come out this type of Lab test haha.....another is that Lawson, Mi, Daryll and Ian is finalli showing something on the court...dunnoe whether their passion towards BBALL gt increase a nt....well I still have lots of things to learn lor....well I promised u guys that I will tok abt my vocals lessons de....and here is it.....my voice now probably can reach Cao ge lor....any song(even superwoman and bei pan) haha....but bad new is my teacher sae that I din use the techniques he taught in class haha but seriously I still dun quite kno how to 'KAI' lehz but can reach so high I m damn happy le but I will try to 'KAI' can my teacher sae confirm chop chop can sing even higher one....hahaha when that dae happens I can become the new nan high yin le hahaha...........

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Eps 40- When once happened, things will be changed forever.....

2008-04-23T00:32:00.002+08:00

Todae I was quite tired and sian cuz other class sit my class de front row....haiz I hated sitting behind somemore the LT so big den oso cant see the screen ar...haiz watched my date wif Vamp2---eps 36....haiz so touching....becuz of her son...she forgt that she is dead already...and keep on fighting to protect her son....even the king of Vamp felt touched but still killed her......I felt that sometimes wat we, as children, wan juz a prove to tell us that our parents love us...a proof of y they punished us....but when they are gone le den we actualli juz wan them to live....maybe some of us are like this maybe nt....but one thing I m sure is that nv tink that they dun care abt u and do all those silly things to gt their attention....ok...well enuff of thoughts le.....well back to my life....hmmmm this week I m nt veri busy on sch work but I saw Sasa's blog and wah she first yr nia jiu so chiong liao haha....sure can made it in poly de......becuz poly is nt onli abt grades...is abt meeting other ppl of diffferent age and diffferent backgrd......tml going back to fisher lo.....and returned Uniform.....dunno can take cheque a nt....and one more thing is I wan Irene to be my godsis....so Irene if u are looking and reading at this entry.....and having the 'dunoe wat is he doing' expession....or which is shock.....pls dun be....I oways hope to have a elder sis that can take care of mi....u are truly a wonderful fren.....*I have lots of thought nd to be tink and I nd to find out the ans to everi single ques.....BTW are u guys surprised I din tok abt my vocal lessons...becuz I quit le....haiz..............joking nia la haha I willl updated a entry on my vocals class tell u guys all my improvement over this 2 months......TATA

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Eps 39- Wah so many ppl!!!

2008-04-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

Todae was a tiring dae as start from 8 end at 5....I kno working is more exhausting den studying....definitely true......this sem's lecturers are gd but I still like last's yr lecturer esp Raj....."Chicken little"Henry..."SweeSwee" Mr Tan....haiz they so gd...my GPA for last yr is 3.149 ard there bah....dun wow....it's onli a beginning....I be back....(no link la actualli but it juz come into my mind and wan to sae it haha)......no la realli dun wow la cuz I cant go Uni wif this lousy GPA...I wan 3.5 and above....found someone's thinking same as mine on the GPA thing...Shermin haha...that dae I saw her den she like dunnoe mi like tat look liao zai look den I waved to her den she waved back to mi....den her fren looked at mi....haha wat if she is toking to someone behind mi....that's y when I waved her fren looked at mi....hahaha....I tink this few daes are the most happiest daes of this yr bah....new freshie[tables] which mean more Gals to kno and look at....more modules to learn...more class in a lecture.....first row always ours,2A02, which no one wans to sit....and somemore the always 100 marks guy...Wei wen to teach us and of course my own competitor..which nv win him once exp for maths....haha...well I muz jia you le I wan to go Uni if can nw.....Learnin Learnin and Learnin.....Btw when I learn the Cryptography I will change the binary code loh....cuz like alot of ppl kno and wanting to kno.....haha

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Eps 38- Welcome back!!

2008-04-15T00:48:00.002+08:00

Wah after so long....finalli I blog....lots of ppl my blog died liao but actualli is I too busy cant find time to blog.....lots of things happen during my work period.....which let mi understand more abt myslf and more abt office politics....even at the age of 18 I could understand the little things y the management does....haiz I feel so damn sian knowing that my own uncle is like tat I have nth to sae....onli apologies to all the ppl in fisher.....Todae was the first dae of sch....things are going quite well enuff....the guys are nt much diff...still funny...the ladies oso nt much changes la....feeling abit weird as so long nv blog lor...haha dun kno wat to tok and where to start....actualli quite alot of things happen but I cant tell most here haha...cuz I din ask their permit to post it in public...but I onli can sae that wat I went though will always be in my mind and I bought my PSP slim......so happy haha......

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Eps 37- Lots of opportunities.....

2008-02-16T00:01:00.003+08:00

Ytd was my vocals assignment....found out that Irene put 2 CDs of xiao zhu on the shelves and his autograph is on it....OMG he is my idol la....and the nxt thing is there will be a singing competition organised by my vocal sch FusionX music and EMI records....open for public....I m going to work hard liao cuz the winner gt a recording contract.....and hope that all of us in my vocals class can go up to lvl 1 togther lor...learn things togther and one more thing gt to tune my pitching....ytd my pitching was okay la....haha but still nt that stable...till veri stable one....so I nd to listen to more keyboards....haha my dream will come true de......

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Eps 36- Things are becoming more meaningless....

2008-02-09T01:43:00.001+08:00

Today is Chinese new yr de second dae....gt lots of hong baos.....went to my grandma's hse was hoping to see her but I onli saw oxygen, carbon dioxide and lots of things that had nth to do wif her.....I oso y....after Dec 30 I din see her anymore....den on Wed which is Chinese new yr's eve had to work till 130pm....den Zhong yang msg mi ask mi gt go back sch a nt....of course I reply no....den ask him saw her a nt....he sae yesh.....that moment I realli veri sian lor realli wan to see her lor one glance oso better than nth lor haiz but no choice had to finish things are going to be ship on Mon....todae her blog put some sentences that are veri weird in terms of the meaning la and of course she is nt toking abt mi....but I wished she was toking abt mi...at least at that moment I was in her mind....but it's a juz a silly thought anyway...haha hu ever that person is.....is so fortunate cuz if gals like tat sae to u ar....means to her u are perfect cuz she tink that she is nt gd enuff for u lor....zi bei la...so dun let her feel this way...man and if u realli jio dao her ar pls I beg u treat her wif all ur heart k...she is realli a nice gal......dun let her down k.....singing is becoming more diff for mi le haiz everithing is juz nt going my way la...cuz I oso dun kno y....I fail in everithing....I oso dunno y....maybe I m realli fated to be juz an average person....haiz enuff of the sad things le...let's tok abt other things...first thing is that I tink that my uncle Raymond hao xiang hlping mi to find galfren like that lor gt any gals ar den called mi to go jio liao...lol...my workplace oso a gal call April..he wan mi to jio her....lol...of course I din take it seriously...sec thing is that when April meet mi to bring mi to the office...she walked a little bit in front of mi and I listen to earpiece and all my relatives ask mi y I din tok to her....somemore Daryll still ask mi to go ask her no. lol I oso dun like her....haiz third thing is looks like this yr valentine's dae I will be alone AGAIN...haiz....maybe nxt yr if I can forgt her.....I will have someone special to accompany mi for Valentine's dae and do lots of things I din done on Valentine's dae before......hope bah....

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Eps 35- I m back...from exams

2008-01-30T11:38:00.000+08:00

Hello and welcome back all the poly students in SP juz finished their exams and started their holidae....todae I will tell all abt the past wk....mondae was a boring dae cuz it's sample DE ppr, sampple DE ppr and more sample DE ppr....haiz listen liao oso tired ar...tues was realli a veri rush dae cuz wake up veri late and had to do pprs and maths was ar.....haha...Wed was the actual DE ppr .....was there early as usual time lor 9am...den wait for pple to come and start toking here and there and do and do pprs again....den 610pm start ppr liao...haha DE was piece of cake...thurs was realli veri tiring had to do pprs and practice a bit of vocals...haha I din practice much after the last lesson and u kno wat Qing yao sae my improved alot and the assignment song was ok till a sentence totalli veri flat ar....haha the class was like shock la cuz I din zao siang den suddenly zao siang when the song is going to end lol...they sae still gt a bit pitching prob nia other than that part which I cant change to "fake voice" in time.... and one more thing is that from her blog she writes there that she gt gd result that she is happy abt...maybe nt that happy but contented....hmmm Joey gt 16 bah and she is start sch todae at TP...can u imagine how much talents she have...and Ziting gt I tink 16 for L1R4 19 for L1R5...she so clever lor the most shocking thing is Royston gt 11 pt OMG congrats Royston....Nicky My twin gt 20 pts haha I m glad that most ppl I kno gt wat they wanted lor....haha....this is the few updates I wan to tok abt first thing is stop asking if I jioing sasa le....cuz I m nt....second thing is that I tink more and more ppl are starting to read my blog bah I tink....haha more updates will be coming up....

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Eps 34- sorrie for the late entry

2008-01-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

Tml is exams le but can sae prepare still ok le hmmmm of course still gt other sub mah haha going to be veri busy liao ar...she going take results le lehz haha nt my business rite haha but I kno she definitely gt gd grades so no nd to tink so much la huh hahaha....my blog will be back once my exams are over...

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Eps 33- At least there is one more thing to be happy abt...

2008-01-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

Todae totalli din went sch cuz y....maths, I dreamt of Mr Henry sae he could onli be there for an hour nia den I fal aslp le haha...but gems is veri unclear lor cuz it's exams study wk and there is no instructions abt it....maybe is I lazy bah...hhaha...well todae pack the computer room and I will be slping there le cuz y that's my new room even though it's smaller den my sis room but well I finalli gt my OWN room haha....I can practise my song all dae long le haha...even though things are not going well for mi rite nw but I figured out that I still have to be happy cuz y...becuz I remember y I wan to be a singer...for support and trust and the love of singing...to express myslf using song cuz I m nt gd nt speaking my mind...this few reasons are part of y I recovered my happy mood...and one more is todae's drama show, qian wang bai qi, Yang siqi was a mute but she is talented in violin...y becuz she can express her feelings in her song...I remember Randy sae I oso can do that den I suddenly remember that technique is impt but songs are suppposed to affect ppl...therefore this is wat I have nw to ACE my vocal assigment to go to LVL 1....one more reason is I saw her blog....she is like so cheerful everidae lor dne when I read her blog I oso being affected become cheerful again...haha

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Eps 32- cant sing wasnt show on the FUCKIN TV

2008-01-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

WTF todae was a veri horrible dae...Randy sae my voice veri throaty....nt my own voice...WTF I m movin backwards rather than improvin...haiz I cant find my voice...I cant realli cant...m I realli bu ke neng wan cheng wo de meng xiang mah....pitching gt problem....and I starting to feel that cheng yao dun like mi...and will there be more worst thing happen to mi...ppl 17th year old jiu chu album liao...I tink I xia ban bei zi du bu yong liao ar......

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Eps 31- I cut my hair....

2008-01-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

Todae Randy take mi to his recommended hairstylist...and chose wat I wan...even though I m satisified but I tink still nt much big difference...yet....nd to do other type of hairstyle but I planing to wait for it to grow see how....I was late for 30 mins and Randy waited mi for 30 mins and somemore had his lunch liao ar haha....sorrie Randy...he spend another 2 hours and made sure that the hairstylist do his work....haha....such a nice person...tml is the first dae of assignment and the CRS test...liao....sian oso dunnoe wa to do la...it's an argumentive essay...last time my sec sch oso nv teach one cuz they sae it's a trap to let students drop in...haiz oso dunnoe wat to do...den todae was bathing that time found out wat Cheng yao was saying when he sae that aim low when hitting high keys....I totalli understood le....but oso nt much use cuz I still have to improve on my pitching first....

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Eps 30- filming on Sundae

2008-01-15T08:18:00.000+08:00

Let mi report on wat I have done this few daes....firstly I have done filming for my sis....it was quite okay except veri cold....secondly I went to k-box...wif Randy and Calvin and Irene and Michele...haha even though I can reach some of Cao ge's song ar but my pitching's off a lot...den Randy tell mi that nd to improve ar...Irene told mi if she were my teacher she yi ba jiu xia qu liao ar...haha....I oso dunnoe y juz cant pitch well...some pitching is off is probably beczu of my breathing but most of the pitching is off I oso dunnoe y....still trying to figure out...my wonderful body...weird lehz I oso dunnoe y?? haaha...o0o ya den we sing till like going 1 liao den go hme...den Michele's parents came and fetch her...hmmmmm haha feeling abit sorrie cuz she asked mi gt niterider a nt I sae gt...den veri late liao den Calvin tell her dun ve cuz it's Sun...lol sorrie...den I went hme by wat...wanna guess...by my foot...I walked hme fro Cineleisure...haha took mi I tink 30 mins like tat are...haha this is all my updates le lor...hahaha o0o btw I will be cutting my on wed hahaha...which is tml...Randy told mi there veri exp....haha but nvm can change a new look for mi can liao...

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Eps 29- Something's wrong wif my ears

2008-01-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

Todae went to fusionX and pay the fees...there are good news and bad news...good news is that I maybe cutting my hair on Mon cuz Randy nd to book the timeslot see if the hair stylist is available...the bad news is that my world tour concert might need more than 5 yrs...well but the bigger prob is my damn ears they are damn weird...I have gt accent..I have gt rhythm...but I dun have pitching...if I dun have pitching means I've gt nth....haiz Randy told mi that actualli I shld be in lvl 1 den oso dunno y become prelvl but nvm he sae that my lvl 1 oso nt strong...but he told mi this if I wan to lvl up den I have to pass though my damn ceilling becuz he and Les both tink that I still havent reach my full potential yet...haiz but there is onli one thing MY PITCHING...arrrrrr haiz I try Randy's method but I still can pitch lehz...dunnoe y tml trying again...trying the highest note on the keyboard...did some recording todae it was horrible...haiz oso dunno y ppl sae I can sing maybe they are realli lying to mi so that I will fall deep down to their trap and will so disappointed and maybe commit suicide...haiz Pitchin dunnoe y God gave things but dun give mi a full set...lol haiz this is a real big prob...

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Eps 28- Happy happy happy I wish that is everidae

2008-01-12T14:08:00.001+08:00

Ytd wake up late and couldnt go to maths becuz of my lateness haha dun have such word...well but had to go for Gems cuz y...nt I veri kuai is gt test...den I tot the test was ok maybe is I dunkno wat's going on that's y...haha...den at 1.30pm I was the dover train station and the train gt something wrong and oso dun kno y everione on the train alight from the train...I was listening to songs therefore nt realli paying attention to wat's going on...but the thing is the train driver came out of the train and call the ctrl room for something and all the time I tot that machine is a generator...nw is a telephone lol...and it rings okay...I was shocked becuz I tot is a one way telephone...which means that u can onli call in not wait for calls...haha but IT RINGS...lol...I wait for 2 trains ltr den aboard cuz it's realli alot of ppl...passengers la more correct nono is angry and frustrated passengers...haha they keep making the sound...well abt my singing hmmm I onli can sae pitching is a lot of hardwork...and ytd was a funny dae...I went to fusionX to pay my fees but no one was in and called Randy but he din picked up his phone so no choice went hme lor haha den went hme le abt 10 or 11 bah I go see her blog den found out that she realli gt go SP's open hse hmmmm becuz my inner voice was like go see if she's there but I din went anyways...haha becuz even I went saw her le oso no use[confirm will saw her cuz the timing she sae in her blog is 1.30pm] lol...but I oso dun even dare tok to her wat's the pt...haha Joel asked mi this ques 2 daes ago...he asked do I tink that she maybe gt interest in mi...haha the first tot in my mind[and I tink oso will appear in her mind] is NO!!!...haha becuz I read her blog for a few months le somehow I kno abit wat she's like and somemore asked from frens well I tink that she likes that kind of guys that is frendly and whenever she is bored will be there for and gt a lot of topics to tok abt one...haha I tink la cuz as long as I nt that kind I tink she will like bah hahaha....hmmmm back to topics becuz Vanny told mi tat she will be excited when u have an interesting topic...Devar told mi that she oso gt sad de yi mian one...I tink that even though her outside is veri cold but actualli she gt a flame inside her...means that onli when u are toking abt her passion, her beloved things then she will start toking and smiling...well seems that I have done nth lehz haha...nth I have sae I have done it hahaha.....I tink will be cuttin my hair by this weekend bah cuz Randy havent yet confirm wif mi...I ltr going to fusionX paying my fees...

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Eps 27- Practices that lead to improvements

2008-01-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

Wah todae...todae is the dae that Randy told mi that I have gt a breakthrough in my singing...and Cheng Yao sae that he likes my new voice...Guys let mi tell u something...my voice is OUT haha I have gt a new voice and I sing my style liao...haha finalli...I m so happy todae...but still gt one big prob....my pitching=(...still cant made it...but nvm I told myself liao I in 1 wk can find my new voice that means I in 1 week can tune my pitching from bad to still okay first...guys thnks for all the encouragements pls let mi kno hu u are so that IF my EP is out ar den I will give u guys a free copy + my signature...k thnks Ting yun esp giving lots and lots of encouragement and thnks =) [dunnoe hu are u but if can maybe u can tell mi ur name] for the advices...tnks Joyling for ur suggestions and ur recommendation for hairstylist...but Randy is introing mi his hairstylist sorrie but I still wan the add to ur recommended hairstylist thnks...haha...Read her blog juz nw she's sick...haha I knew it..cuz she gt sae in her blog that her throat is dry and itch...that's the syptoms of sore throat...guess her's is quite serious cuz she ase it affect her hearing...even though she would nv read my blog but still take care of ur health k sasa...

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Eps 26- Practice practice and practice!!!

2008-01-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

Todae was at sch did lots of circuit things and nearly blinded by resistors diodes and I even took a inductor and think that it's a resistor lor wat the fuck!!! haha lucky found out or else my PBIL gone ar...haha this few daes was some happy daes and I will stay that way and listen to others le rather I tok...dne todae do some vocal exercises todae but my voice still cant be out when I sing songs but it came out when I was doing the yawn thing den I realised that it's can onli come out when I m doing a note...haiz the prob is getting worst...haiz I suddenly found out that gd guys are always being bullied la haha haiz I tink most guys gt the same prob as Ian la hmmmm that's his privacy let's nt reveal anything haha...the post are gtting shorter kno y...cuz I din dream of her tis past few weeks le can sae is finalli can focus on my career le...I kno everithing I put everithing away for whom I like...one word from her and well I will be there but this time I realli wan to do something for myself le...haha everione forgtten abt the LEDS christmas lights le onli Joyling asked mi todae and Sam ask mi how's mi and her le...haha the onli thing I can sae is that she is on moon I m on Earth...means that I onli can watch her from far...haha tink too again haha...gtg byebye

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Eps 25- What if everithing is a dream

2008-01-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

Wat if everithing was juz a false hope for mi to sink deep inside and nv be in rightful mind again...Wat if I failed...Wat if I cant improve...Wat if I cant find my voice...Wat if there's no 5 yrs ltr...Wat if I m going to die tml...Wat if everione ard mi is juz jking wif mi...Wat if I cant fulfil wat I m made for...can someone ans my ques...Life is unpredictable but how I can be so hopeful and full of confidence to fulfil my dreams when everione is having the same dreams...wat does I have and the rest dun have...do I realli have talents....I realli dunkno...no one told mi that before nt even my family...do I reallli have natural rhythms for songs...haiz I realli dunkno...I realli dunkno...but I tink the onli way to find out is to step into the future where no ones kno wat will happen...haiz I will strive towards my dreams de...becuz 我依然是我....

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Eps 24- Things are going inhuman like....

2008-01-08T08:55:00.000+08:00

Ytd went to watch AVP2...I personally feel that as the story progresses ar it has similarity with Resident Evil2....haiz ytd oso dunkno y lost Johnson's thumbdrive and I din even feel guilty lor...m I going inhuman??? or m I going though another growing process.....haha todae was quite a gd dae dun kno y it's juz my feeling lehz quite light todae that's y and this week there will be alot of tests ar still gt lots of things haven done dunnoe how....M I feeling stress for the first time of my life becuz of 2 exams at the time???? Maybe becuz sch is veri diff liao but still gt to manage Vocals but I m still veri happy and glad that I take up vocals cuz it realli give mi a lot of knowledge haha Even though my ren yuan nt gd but I cant do anything tll my character improves haha.....have tot of how many ppl would be attending ur funeral??? I cant imagine how little that might be haha....

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Eps 23- I m such a disappointment!!!

2008-01-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

Todae went to FusionX....was late cuz of payaya milk la...den saw Les, Randy and Calvin...den in the class nth much lor juz feel that lesson was so quick over todae and everione wait for Randy to come back and he give us some advices on our singing lor...hmmmm den after that he told mi that Les actualli wan to write mi a song...I m shocked...Randy told mi that actualli I have talents and Les tink that I have potentials...Randy oso sae that it's disappointing lor cuz I improved veri slowly and he sae that I have this attitude when I m singing songs...hmmmm ya u have guessed it's over-confidence...he oso told mi this if u wan to be somebody even after the world tour concert...u have gt to grow and learn....I feel veri sad rite nw cuz I realli dun worth the time for Les to write mi a song...den what abt the rest...sebbie and royston and vic...if he write for mi how can I ans towards them....hmmmmm I realli feel veri sian nw lor...dreams and frens and mentor...I realli wan to improve I wan to go Taiwan I wan to fulfil my dreams I wan I realli wan so I will start my hardwork nw and will nt stop till I gt my techniques and voice correct....

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Eps 22- New Year!!! 2008!!

2008-01-01T07:26:00.000+08:00

TOdae is the first dae of 2008....hmmmm fro 0000 till nw is abt 0730 like tat I m awake....I went out to count down hmmmm quite crowded and I found something veri weird is y the bangelas can repeat the whole thing they have done yr after yr it's so damn borring lor keep spraying the foam at ppl that walk past them haiz o0o dunnoe kno y lor den Mi and Zhong yang keep avoiding th ppl den avoid dao we ended up at the middle of the road which have a divider that divide the road ya somehow We ended up there den watch show how they spray la and all...haha quite funny hmmmmm Mi and the guys walked alot[fro esplanade to PS den to Orchard den back to PS den to Bugis den to Central den to Chinatown den we walked back hme]during the Chinatown journey We actualli wanted to stop at Mac and rest one but the Mac is full!!! so we went to Chinatown pt de 7-11 and buy drinks lor haha tok alot I tink I m a nite active person haha.....todae is a nw yr lor so fast gt prob pop up liao dunnoe izzit mean that my career thi yr gt alot of obstacles ar hahaha...tink too much again....but I willl nt give up lor no matter wat I will fulfil my dreams u guys too k haha Happy New Year......

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Eps 21- 丫頭 is so cute

2007-12-31T00:59:00.001+08:00

hello guys todae I will let u see some pic of 丫頭 haha veri cute hor haha she 19 onli lehz haha

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Eps 20- Went to play bball again...

2007-12-30T02:24:00.000+08:00

Todae nt much exciting de juz Mi, Ryan and My bball lor saw lots of Outramians todae haha guess hu I saw Deme...I saw Huiling haha...she recognised Mi lehz haha...u two realli gt prob sian she went down to LKCC den u n free cant go down haiz...wah den todae something happen again...I was tinking wat is she doing den tok and tok to ppl[of course is gals la gt one gal called Trica haha she looked like a 10 yr old gal but quite cute hu wan her no go find Ryan] hmmm back to my topic...den after I sae gd bye to Ryan on the train den I walked up the stairs...I was tinking wat is going to happen if I saw her walking down the stairs...den I sae to myself tink too much ar...suddenly when I reached the top ar I saw her juz tapping her EZ-link card den I wasnt sure I tink she oso saw mi but veri far distance so I quickly walked another way cuz I saw her head's down...I scared she paiseh den veri kan kar...haha hmmmm veri late liao going to slp liao byebyebyebye.....

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Eps 19- My voice is abit airy

2007-12-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

Todae went to sch do IDEAS de project hmmmm alot of things are generated in the brainstorming and we started doing the ppt le haha hope tat our grp can continue the gd wk and gt gd scores....den sec thing is that Qingyao saes that my voice is out by 30% le and he sae there is much more potential in my new voice...and Randy...haha he ask mi to find a fast song to sing cuz he want to kno wat my style is haha...den someone told mi that Randy sae that my voice has improved...I will fulfil my dream de...haha den I went to thnks giving todae saw Sheryl and lots of ppl...I found out that yuan lai I have ppl noticing mi and giving mi gd advices on the way so I have decided that I will go on stage when I have an opportunity so Chinese new yr's concert here I come and everithing I do is to gt her attention...I kno she is freaked out by mi...haiz dunno bah 5 yrs..I will return to Singapore to fulfil my dream de...hmmmm abt her actualli I nt tinking too much liao lor cuz no matter wat she still havent treat mi as a normal fren bah haha but since everithing has happened I will persevere though it even if everione sae that it's impossible juz like my singing...I will persevere....and I found out that even though she gone through alot but she is still young gt a lot of things to learn....but well I shi zhong xiang xin you zhi si bu yu de ai qing....

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Eps 18- Wat's wrong wif my life....

2007-12-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

Todae I finalli found y I wan to be a singer y I wan to have a concert...is nt becuz of fame nt becuz of money...is becuz of the fans I would gt...the support the trust the shoulder that they will lend mi....that wat I wan...this is the things that are lacking from my life nt onli nw but for the past 18 yrs...is it veri difficult to find someone to tok to rather than ppl start toking abt the things abt their lives and I started giving advice but the main thing is I havent even gt my life obstacles cleared...The things that are missing for my life is nt onli that...I read her entry...there it saes how she feel abt mi giving her the present thing....she sae that it freaked her out and it's irritating...dun ask mi how I feel cuz the ans is obvious and after this thing I kept thinking abt lots of things wat shld I do to start toking to her...I realli have no damn idea and I have confirm le I will sing in the Chinese new yr concert again...yesh this time something different liao I m gting dancers and will be singing kuai ge in front of my former Sec sch...I figured out that firstly she will be there and secondly I will gt more experiences and thirdly I can let the audience kno abt my strength in singing...probably will be dancing too....fourthly I can gt free advertisment haha I will shocked everione in the hse...

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Eps 17- What is the actual christmas present...

2007-12-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

<--Leds that form Merry Christmas

<--this the backview of the Leds circuit board...

Eps 16- Disappointed, yet happy yet sian haha

2007-12-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

Here I will wish everione Merry Christmas and happy new yr...ytd went to sebbie's hse and eat steamboat den everione ask mi to stay over den I oso cant reject them so I stayed over...I quickly went hme and take things...her present and my shirt and everithing...den didnt slp I couldnt cuz I m so excited as she will be there too...finalli the dae arrived I was on the bus to Xpo wah the scene that I cant forgt is when everione lights up their candle...the trust and support that I discovered what I was looking when I was young...what I mean is that I have nv been had this trust and support before whereby when the fire is blow out u can always count on the person beside u....haha o0o btw I couldnt the gift I couldnt...well hmmm but when I give my another present I was actualli shocked when Tracy actualli knows wat's going on...I have no idea wat is that all abt...but what I keep thinking is the ques she ask mi"y does everibody dun have and y does she have".....I wanted to ans but I juz dunnoe how to ans...and beside there is too many ppl ard her I kno she will definitely be paiseh one la okok la maybe nt her is mi la will she din accept my present and the present I gave it to someone named Roger in front of her....I kno it's veri ungentleman like but I doubt she will care bah maybe everione in the world is rite sometime dreams dun come true and well haha let's juz see wat wil happen in the future bah....but I m actualli becuz of 2 things first is that I finalli do something abt it liao lor rather than doing nothing and second thing is that I m glad that at that moment she actualli gt think wta to do lor....haha

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Eps 15- Dunno wat I do to deserve this!!!

2007-12-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

Ytd I din blog is becuz I was busy cutting the perspect[some material that is like plastic] using a penknife...wah its veri big la den I use a small penknife den suddenly I saw a crack that is made by the penknife on the opposite side wah I so happy den dunno how the world piece came off by itself but I cut the width of the thing ar I tot that the same thing would happen den the perspect crack and the whole thing cant be use liao lor...haiz den suddenly tot that the thing so big if I give her liao oso dunnoe if she will like it or nt dne I oso remember Joyling sae that if is laptop size ar she will take lor cuz too big ar after Christmas put where...wat she sae is so true la I tink le I oso dunnoe wat to do...shld I step forward and walk towards her or shld take a step back and watch her from far...haiz I oso cant made up my mind...dunno wat to do ar...haiz give mi some advices can anyone??? I oso dunnoe if she gt see my blog a nt...she sae in her blog that she is looking forward towards Christmas but I oso dunnoe wat can I do even if I give her the present liao haiz ask ehr out mehz she will go out mehz...I realli dunnoe lehz...haiz onli left wif abt 4 daes le how to finish the Project S1010S1010....haiz GOD hlp pls hlp.....I realli nd an extra arm[s] to hlp ar....

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Eps 14- 我不会唱歌

2007-12-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

Todae I heard Luo zhi xiang de new song over the FM den I go listen and found out it's so damn nice la I sing lai sing qu oso cant refine my high keys lehz dunno y haiz sian lor....trying lots of things ar tml see how bah...o0o guess wat I dream of her again lor it's the 4th time le I forgt wat I dream le...den saw her uploaded pics wah start to have this thought...wo pei de shang ta ma??? My confidence start to startled...becuz she is so pretty and not to mention cute but I....haiz I kno I wan to be a singer but still I still have that thought lehz....dunnoe la haiz maybe ppl are laughing behind my back abt my dream, or even worst no one wans to listen...I m trying veri hard to fight against this ppl...I kno I will made it haiz maybe there is no one out there for mi or even worst I will juz be a person that work and work all dae long and go back hme and eat den slp den wake up and go work again....but I realli dun wan to be like this...I dun wan my life to juz be so routine I wan my life to have a part in history I wan to leave my footsteps and the next generation will kno abt mi...I realli wan it....I oso wan her to my lifetime partner but things might nv come true bah....

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Eps 13- BBq

2007-12-18T01:12:00.000+08:00

Haha hello todae was a fine dae even though BBq was troublesome becuz of the RAIN...I meet Shermin, Ee hwa, Wanni, Cheryl and Xin min...we actualli used a umbrella and everione hide inside and the rain was veri big la haha but okay la quite fun lor cuz I saw a lot ppl even though I din do much toking to them but as long as they are fine can le lor cuz I oso nt so gum wif them de mah den Ah jie oso nv go...haha I kept on cooking and cooking lor hmmmm quite fun la that's wat I love in BBq can cook for other ppl to eat lor hmmmmm quite gd lor...she online todae hmmmm dunnoe wan to tok to her a nt but I tink better nt cuz nt much things to tok but like I sae no matter wat I onli wan her to be my one and onli lor[juz my wishful thought la if she everidae tok to mi oso will become sian one lor correct a nt haha...] my feeling towards my world tour concert is stronger...becuz Qing yao[my vocal teacher] he sae that a Singer muz be sincere becuz like tat ppl will oso start to feel wif ur song and den slowly sway into ur rhythm and lyrics and that moment may oso affect his/ her's decision towards something...I felt something in my heart when he told mi this cuz I realli nv think in this thinking before...haha maybe I will slowly become a gd singer but the process will be a long one lor... haha SEE U GUYS SOON...

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